Sarah R. Christovich

Sarah, I haven't been sleeping well lately, something has been brewing inside my soul memory. Although it's been 8 years this date always smacks me in the face. Trauma never leaves the body, science has now proven this, but you and I are empathic light workers. We always felt and trusted our insight, I have felt your insight, especially last July. Thank you for reminding me that the greatest gift ever is coming home to yourself. With time the acute pain of your passing has faded, your memory will never leave me, your love and light lives on in my heart. No one is ever truly gone. I'll see you again, on the flip side my best friend. All my love soul sister ???11:11

Nice to meet you at the beach

It's been 4 yrs, 9 mos since your death. I wish I could say that I am doing better, but the truth is that I ache for you as much as the day you died. I know you are with me, though I wish we could visit more; however, I know this ties you to our world. You are happiness, joy, beauty, and inspiration. You are everything to me & I cannot wait to see you again, my darling girl. Love you forever.

My Heart, thoughts and Prayers go out to Sarah's family. I never had the privliedge of knowing this beautiful girl but, as being a parent who has also has lost a child, I do understand your pain and am so very deeply sorry. If there would be anything I could do, please do not hesitate to contact me. God Bless you all Sincerely, Robert and Patti Payne

4 files added to the tribute wall

Peace of mind is a call away. We're here when you need us most.

I really cant believe that i just read this in the Winchester Star. Sarah was an amazing and fun loving girl. I always had a smile on my face when she was around. I am heartbroken to hear this. RIP Sarah. My prayers go out to her family and friends.

Moneen, I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that you're in my prayers and that your mom and dad were waiting for Sarah and will watch over her now.

Although its been years, It seems like yesterday when I danced with Sarah in countless Nutcrackers. She was my best dance pal, and I always looked forward to seeing her in class. She made me laugh and was an amazing dancer. We shared many years on stage and behind the curtains and had many moments I will never forget. We used to trade clothes, and I'll never forget her brown bell bottoms with large orange flowers she let me borrow. She had an amazing and unique style. Although I haven't seen her in awhile, I will never forget her. It was so easy to be around her, it was so easy to be her friend. Those years will not be forgotten. Praying for all.

RIP Sarah! My thoughts and prayers and with her family!

I went to High School with Sarah. She was always funny and was nice to everyone. She will truly be missed. My thoughts and prayers are with her family. Kristen Owens

I went to High School with Sarah. She was a funny girl and was always nice to everyone. She will truly be missed. My thoughts and prayers go out to her family and friends. Kristen Owens

1 file added to the tribute wall

You flew swift, sMiles all around, then you left us weeping here on the ground...you now look down froM Heaven above, watching over the one's you loved.Now your in a better place, flying with angels and wings Made of lace.

I will never forget the absolutely beautiful little blonde haired, blue-eyed ballerina. I was very proud of you! I am so devastated for her parent's and brother's loss. As a parent myself, I can't fathom it, and I still am finding it hard to believe this is even true. I know she was welcomed with open arms by her Grammy and Pappy and I am sure he is dancing a polka with her until we are all reunited again. I love you and will miss you Sarah. Our family has lost such a bright, talented, sweet soul. Love, your cousin, Tanja

My thoughts, prayers and heartfelt sympathy go out to the Christovich family. She is at peace now with God. Dale Watten

My thoughts are with Sarah's family tonight.

my sweet Sarah the Crazyness will always b among us!!!! weve laughted 2 that many times. i will always think of u n smile !!!! im with u hunter fuck Brian we know ur number it shouldve been u. Rachel Kathleen Chowning

My dear sweet Sarah the Crazyness is still among us beautiful ! ur home n a better place. i miss u so bad ! ill always smile n think of u. u could make a rainy day sunny! Rachel Kathleen Chowning

Prayers for peace and sympathy to the family of Sarah Christovich. She was an amazing light in the lives of many and her memory will forever be in my heart. Our time in school was wonderful and she produced many smiles with her wild and free spirit. Lord, keep those who were near to her under Your wing and bring peace that passes all understanding. -Andrea N. Dove (Haymaker)

When Sarah was working in an assisted living home locally, she called (mom) asking me to bring a forgotten item. When I arrived, she met me in the hallway, where residents were waiting to receive their medication(s). She introduced me as her mom to each of the residents. As we spoke, an elderly woman began to cry loudly. Sarah went to her, kneeled at eye-level, took the woman's hands in hers, and asked what was wrong. Edna (not official name) responded that she could not find her purse. Soon her cries became sobs. Sarah said not to worry, that she would find it and went off to look. Returning Sarah gave Edna a purse. Edna was all smiles and kissed Sarah on the cheek. As she rejoined me, I remarked how glad I was that she found the purse. Sarah looked at me and whispered, "Mom, Edna doesn't have a purse, so I gave her mine." Sarah had a heart of gold. She loved working with the elderly and animals and all were to be treated with dignity and respect in her eyes. This world would be a better place if we all practiced Sarah's humanity.

Peace of mind is a call away. We're here when you need us most.

A few years ago, Sarah worked at a local assisted living home. One day I received a call to bring an item she had forgotten. She met me in a lobby where residents were waiting to receive their medications. Sarah introduced me to each person as "her mom". As we talked, an elderly woman began to cry loudly. Sarah went to Edna (not official name), kneeled to be at eye-level, took Edna's hands in hers, and asked what was wrong. Edna sobbed that she could not find her purse. Sarah told her not to worry that she would bring her purse. A few minutes later, she returned handing a purse to Edna, who was all smiles and kissed Sarah on the cheek. I told her that I was glad she found Edna's purse to which Sarah replied, "Mom, Edna doesn't have a purse. I gave her mine." Sarah had/has a heart of good. She loved working with the elderly and animals. As you have read from others' comments, she did not judge. Everyone should be treated with dignity and respect. How I miss her! Sarah's mom, Moneen

When Sarah moved from her crib to the "big girl's" bed, she'd frequently would get out of her bed and come downstairs. One of those times, I instructed her as usual to return to her bed. This night she began to climb those stairs, sucking her two fingers with her "blankie" held below her nose. Sarah stopped, looked at her Dad and said, " I love you my precious, Daddy!" Needless-to-say, she was back on the sofa with Daddy reading her favorite books! How she loved her Daddy!

Sarah - my dancer. She danced ballet since age 5 with 95% of her studies at Vostrikov Academy. How she loved to dance! In 1993 she danced "Clara" in the nutcracker and danced exquisitively. While I sat praying, "Please don't let her fall, please don't let her fall", my brother cried tears of joy. The actual "nutcracker" prompt fell and broke when Clara's brother threw it on the stage dislodging one arm, she did not panic, but rather beautifully improvised. The stage was hers and she danced it as such. There was never a better or more wicked witch than when she danced "Hansel & Gretel". Her performance was outstanding and people sitting around us, not knowing we were her parents, whispered, 'Who is this girl? She's incredible!" Later backstage, her maestro told me that Sarah had improvised nearly 75% of the dance! After the performance, the dancers sat on stage and the audience was able to ask questions of them. The children approached her, mostly hiding behind their mothers' skirts. One little boy found the courage to ask, "Why are your teeth so black?" to which Sarah replied in her wickedly, funny voice, "Because I ate toooo much can-day!" Her sense of humor and wit lit many faces and most of all ours. Sarah was strong, a powerful source, and completely believed in herself. Her gifts were many: dancing, writing poems and prose. When she entered to 10th grade, her guidance counselor met with us and urged us to allow Sarah to get her GED and go on to college. 'We have nothing to offer her here", he said. Hindsight is 20/20. She was terribly bored in school and, much to the school's chagrin, she created her own entertainment while there. But gifted children are frequently punished for being so bright. When in fourth grade, Sarah would come home from school telling me she did not have recess once again, but had to stand against the wall and watch her friends play. Being an educator, I quickly scheduled an meeting with her teacher. When asked about why Sarah missed so many recesses, the teacher replied, "Because she asks too many questions?" What - too many questions??? Sarah had intense curiosty about the world in which she lived. In the end, I guess either the world could not understand who she was/is or she could not understand this world. Sharing these stories give me peace during this wretched time of grief. I am glad to have the opportunity to do so. Bear with me. Sarah's mom, Moneen

The first song on Sarah's tribute video was written by her father, he playing lead guitar and my son, Matthew, on trombone. The second was one of her favorite Jimi Hendrix tunes. I failed to mention that Sarah also played a mean trombone! Sarah's mom, Moneen

With Sarah's 29th birthday approaching I've found myself missing her so very much. I bought a picture frame that states "It is not important how long a star shines but how brilliant it shines." I've been remembering how many hikes Sarah I and took down skyline drive. Especially when I was first learning to drive and I took my white jeep everywhere with her. I spent my 16th birthday with her and she bought me a tie dye shirt that I still own. I'll never go to our waterfall without remembering all our fun times there. Most of the time it was just us girls but on occasion boys that passed through our lives went with us. Sarah and I also spent a lot of time meditating. I find myself evoking her energy when I sit in my healing room. She was also the first person that I ever gave a reiki session and now I work on 1,000 pound horses. I went to a zumba class last week and laughed out loud at what a horrible dancer I am. Sarah would have had a good laugh too. I miss you Sarah so very much. I'm so glad that we have a safe place to share your spirit. My thoughts and prayers continue to be with Sarah's family.

Sarah, elementary school age, had an ongoing joke with the father of very close friends. It went like this: M R ducks. M R not. M R too . . . see M itty, bitty eyes! Not sure I captured its entirety, but the two of them would laugh hysterically. Sarah always had a great sense of humor . . . always made others laugh. So what does her mother now drive? M R-2 (Spyder) Sarah's Mom

When my mother, who had Alzheimer's Disease, lived with me, Sarah was her primary care-taker. Mom wasn't quite clear as to who Sarah was but knew she should know her. She waited eagerly for Sarah's arrival each day and was thrilled when she saw her. When I would come home from work, I'd hear the music blaring and upon opening the kitchen door, there would be my mom dancing throughout the house with Sarah and frequently her boyfriend. Mom was thrilled and so very, very happy! What a gift Sarah gave to her in the last months of mom's life. She loved her 'Grammy' dearly. Sarah took under her wing the weak, the downtrodden, those cast out by others, people considered 'different', the elderly, and the homeless regardless of race or class. Sarah loved people unconditionally and they adored her. I know why God put Sarah on this earth, I don't know why He took her home so early. Sarah's mom, Moneen

Happy 29th Birthday in heaven Sarah. I love you.

HAPPY 29th BIRTHDAY, MY SWEET SARAH!!! Love you forever, Mom

My Sweet Sarah, Remember when you suspended yourself from high school??!!! You had to run from Latin class to another class, which was on the other side of the school. The bell rang and you were standing inside the classroom doorway; however, you were not 2 inches inside the door and were told to go to the office. Your debate fell upon silent ears. You spoke your mind, regarding injustices, as only you could, went to the office, promptly suspended yourself, and drove home - never to return again. Oh, we should've sent you to college in 10th grade as your high school counselor recommended! You battled injustice for all people for the rest of your short-lived life. How proud I was of you for taking on the battles of other, who were not as strong or could not debate as well as you. How I love and miss you, Sarah. Love you, Mom

Well, girl, we're off to Atlantic City. Of course, you're coming - I don't go anywhere without you! Now, since you'll be looking at the casino from above, please send some hints regarding lucky numbers! Soaking in the sun, you'll be drawn to the rhythms of the ocean, as a siren sings to the lost. One day soon, I will take the remainder of your ashes to Positano, Italia and spread them in the Tyrranhean Sea, where the mermaids called to the sailors from the Syraneuse Islands. We'll dance in the streets with the residents of Sorrento! Then Roma, where you'll join fellow artists on the Piazza Navona. I want you to meet Michele, the finger puppeteer. My loss is diminishing as I realize fully now that you are with me each moment every day. I love you my, Sarah. Mom Miss hearing from you, Sarah's friends.

Yeah Moneen! So glad your getting away to enjoy the last bits of the summer harvest season. Please call me when you get back. I haven't been able to get a response about a candle/copy of Sarah's video and I haven't wanted to intefere with your own grieving process. I'm planning a trip to Sorrento next May. I had something I wanted to drop in the ocean for Sarah this weekend when I was in Charleston SC but it just didn't feel like the right place. I'm thinking the outer banks as I know she loved it there too. Since it was Jerry week in the music world I've listen to a ton of music that reminds me of Sarah. Such creative minds are often lost to early in our society. Mostly because they are just to good, pure for our world.

Given the date of her birthday, Sarah could have gone to kindergarten when she was barely 5 years. She still sucked her two fingers and held her "blankie" simultaneously under her nose. We felt she was too young and waited another year. Well, after her first day of kindergarten, I met her at the end of our driveway, as she insisted on riding the bus (always so independent). Sarah and I entered the kitchen where, after depositing her bookbag and lunch box, she put those little hands on her hips, looked me straight in the eye, and said, "You made a mistake! I should have gone last year. I already know everything in kindergarten. I'm going to be bored all my school life!" And right she was. Sarah was bored all her school years. She did have a couple of people who understood her completely and marveled at her intelligence: her junior high music teacher and her high school counselor. They treated her with dignity and respect. As an educator myself in the public school system, I feel the right to say every teacher needs to follow the example of the two aforementioned teachers. Accept the gifts and uniqueness in every child. Teach to each child's level and raise the bar rather than teaching to the average student. When treated with dignity and respect, students will respond likewise. There is no room for "power" and "control" in the classroom. Management is the key word. Forgive me Sarah for having allowed you to experience all the negativity in school simply because you were too bright and would never submit to injustices. I hope you are having all the recesses you missed in the fourth grade in Heaven now. Swing high and far, my girl! I can see you now. Love you forever, Mom

I Am A Free Spirit I will heal and not harm. I will love and not hate. I will restore and not demolish. I will help and not hurt. I will seek to understand and not judge or dismiss. I will grow and not stagnate. I will be respectful and not rude. I will be compassinoate and not cruel. I will have empathy and not apathy. I will be mindful and not needless. I will be strong and not weak. I will be corageous and not cowardly. I will dare to dream and not relinquish hope. I will be open-minded and not closed shut. I will plant peace and not strife. I will inspire and not crush. I will thrive and not be thwarted. I will live in the moment and not dwell in the past or on the future. I will cherish my loved ones, animals, and Mother Earth and never take them for granted. I will embrace my uniqueness and never be generic. I will make magic and not malignancy. I will create and not destroy. I will be free and never confined. I am a free spirit who is grateful for my life and freedom...today. This poem was written by Christine Bruness 2008 and reminds me of Sarah. Missing you on this rainy day Sarah girl.

Sarah, Keep reading the lyrics to one of your favorite Hendrix tunes, Up From the Skies, the second tune on your tribute video. The lyrics are so you or vice versa. Hugs and kisses. Mom

The last chance I had to spend quality time with Sarah there were 3 feet of snow on the ground. She was wearing that horrible blue wig and she ran outside and picked me up. She then proceeded to carry me into the house. My husbands first words to her were "damn girl, your strong." Sarah was strong, brave, and tough! The time before that she came out to my parents farmhouse and we spent time catching up on the events of our life. We climbed a huge tree in the front yard and watched the sunset. Sarah cooked dinner that night and helped me host old friends. I never knew that she could cook like that and I'm thankful for these most recent moments with her. I miss you most when the moon is full soul sister...

Sarah, Remember when Mr. Whiskers was missing? We tried to reassure you Mr. Whiskers was possibly still alive - just wandering throughout the neighborhood. Well, Matthew set us straight! Our service was held for Mr. Whiskers, after your father dug nearly 3 times before he could hit dirt & not rock in our yard. You were so strong and brave and patient. Remember, we planted the lovely Audrey Hepburn roses on Whisker's grave. Those roses still grow, as I know you do so in Heaven. How I love and miss you, my baby. Smell the roses, baby. All my love, Mom

I had a dream about you at the beach this last week Sarah. You looked so healthy and it seemed to real. It was good to see you in a dream, pretty lady.

Sweet girl, This picture of your happy, smiling face warms my heart. I had just returned from a summer trip to Italy, where I bought all your birthday presents . . . the dress you wear, the earrings, necklace, bronze carnivale masks. I feel the happiness of this day, your hugs & kisses, as if it were yesterday. Julio sends his love & laughed heartily regarding the 'goat lips' & sound, as well as the some of the pranks you pulled to lift others spirits - to make them laugh under some of the worst circumstances. You had such a gift for this. We agreed that you are 'one of a kind'. How I miss you walking through the door and saying "What's up woman?" in that graveling voice. I can't accept that you are gone. I want to hold you in my arms with your head under my chin, as you always sought. I love you, my Sarah. Mommy

Peace of mind is a call away. We're here when you need us most.

Your ballet slippers, candle, and picture are now carefully placed on a table all of your own at my home. I put on the fire pants and your hat last night! You would have loved it. Thanks for your letter. I know you helped your mother open right up that that page. Love you sweet girl. Almost a harvest full moon.

"Her eye, her ear, were turning forks, burning glasses, which caught the minutest refraction or echo of a thought or feeling . . . She heard a deeper vibration, a kind of composite echo, of all the writer said, and did not say. - Willa Cather

As a ballet instructor to small children, Sarah was a delight to watch either on the side of the stage or on the stage leading her little ones through their dance(s). After performances, her babes would surround her off stage hugging and kissing her. They adored her and she adored them. Her beaming smile and their giggles and grins were precious to behold.

Sarah- I've felt your presence all around me this week and now that some events have unfolded I know why. Thanks for keeping an eye on me and dancing. I know that you are also looking after a fallen soldier up there in heaven. I love you girl.

Another beautiful full moon has passed this week. A harvest moon at that...our favorite. I listened to wading in the velvet sea last night and remembered all the New Years we spent together. New years 2000 was special and I wish dearly that we would ring in 2012 together. Love you, sweet friend.

I miss you beautiful!

Another full moon passes and as always I'm thinking of you. I'll never see a full moon any not think of you sweet girl. Tom and I are ready for Christmas and I just returned from a trip to Denver. You would LOVE Denver. I hope you can float on over there in heaven. I'm also wearing the opal earrings that you gave me for Christmas two years ago. Two little butterflies that have always symbolized us. I brought your picture into my office and I love having you with me all day. I plan on spending some time with your mother this holiday and will do my best to look after her during this very tough time. Love you girl. Kisses.

Sarah- It was so wonderful to celebrate your life last week. I must admit I've been quite sad since we did this. I hate that you cannot participate and be with all those that love you. I hate that I cannot ever call you again or enjoy some girls time with you. You changed my life. I was not popular and didn't have many friends. You took the time to befriend me, encoaurged me, and helped mold me into who I am today. I know you are proud of me. Although it is months later I feel extremely angry that you will never get in my vehicle again and change the CD 100 times. You were my best friend and you can never replace the friends of your youth- i'll never have anyone like you again. Everyone knows that friendships change with age but I can't say that they improve because life just gets busy and you do things out of necessity, not always love. I'm glad to spend time with your other friends because I realize that you were someone we all wanted for ourselves. Most of us were jealous when you had a serious boyfriend or a new friend. You were the kind of person that you just wanted to yourself. Maybe that is a curse of a blessing but we all loved you and it speaks to the kind of friend and love you offered. I know you were with us too! See you soul sister. love you.

January Full Moon is tonight. See you in the stars sweet friend. Love you.

Love you sweet Sarah. Just got back from New Orleans and you and I would have terrorized that city together :)

Sweet friend tomorrow is the full moon for February. I will bask in its beauty and know that you will be with me. I know you are giving me strength and I feel your presence. I love you forever. Always yours

Happy Valentines Day sweet, beautiful friend. The last time I saw you it was Valentines Day weekend. We made some good memories and played in the snow back when winter was cold! I can't begin to describe the void in my life without you. I'll do my best to fill it with love and positive energy. I had your beautiful Italy dress dry cleaned this week...your makeup from the last time you wore it was still present. I'm all booked for Sorrento and Roma and I'm going to wear your dress and honor your spirit, Sarah becuase that it all anyone who truly loved you can do. I'm also looking to creating a scholarship/tribute in your honor with Bethany Hall. I won't let your name be forgotten. Love you and miss you.

Hey Beautiful. The March full moon is tonigiht. We always disliked the month of March but I'm going to make this a positive month. I remember our phone conversations last March. It just does not feel that long ago. I hate that I can't call you now. Can't you work on that phone in heaven? I'm going to get some fresh flowers tonight and gaze at the moon. Come visit me in spirit. I love you forever.

I'm missing you so very much today. Send your family and me some sunny rays of light from heaven.

Happy April sweet friend. I know how much we always looked forward to the end of March. This one wasn't any better but I'm sure you had a perfect month in heaven. Full Moon this Thursday. Should be a beautiful month. I love you.

Sarah, It has been awhile since I wrote but I have thought of you every day. I can't beleive that a year has passed since you left this world. Life just isn't the same without you in it. I found a passage that reminds me of our friendship and I wanted to share it with you. "They are love, those rare, blinding early friendships. Not everyone has them, and almost no one gets more than one. The other, the later ones, are not the same. These first grow in a soil found only in the country of the young, and are possible only there because their medium is unbroken time and proximity and discovery, and later there is not enough of these for the total, ongoing immersions that these friendships are. It charmed us, soothed us, fed us, consumed us. We discovered in each other and ourselves worlds, galaxies, a universe." I miss all our magic. I love you forever. Kristin

I loooove you sista, i saw the lizard king the other day, it reminded me of all the sketches you used to make draw of ol'jim and "the doors" album cover's ;) muuuaah

Your 30th Birthday is all most upon us. How I wish that you were here so that we could be planning a party. I feel very sad that your life ended before we could celebrate 3 decades on this planet together. My solace is that I know you do not suffer the same pain that those of us on earth experience. I know that you are not lonely, sad, and that you never cry. I know that you are not in pain and that you are beautiful and full of joy. You made so many birthdays very speical for me and I wish that I could make this one special for you. There is a full moon on your birthday this year. You and Jerry are up in heaven dancing, that I know for sure. Love you sweet friend.

Happy 30th Birthday Beautiful Woman. I love you so much. Last night the moon was almost full and there was a thrilling thunderstorm. This morning I watched the sunrise and the sky was so beautiful. Tonight a full moon in honor of you and your 30th. Your Leo spirit is all around. I will look at the moon tonight and I will toast to you in your favorite wine glass. I love you dearly Sarah. I so wish you were here. Those of us who truly loved you, knew you, and were only positive influences in your life will never be the same without your presence. So dance with Jerry to sugar magnolia today sweet, beautiful friend.

For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed. When you part from your friend, you grieve not. For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain. And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit. And let your best be for your friend. If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also. For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill? Seek him always with hours to live. For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness. And the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures. For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed. Kahlil Gibran

Hey my lovely Sarah girl , I miss ya sooo much , I'm in California I wish you were here with me !! I feel u with me in other ways, I know you see me and smile and laugh with me, we have little inside jokes, lol ppl around me don't get it when I'm laughing with out them lol but you get it !! ;) <3 peace pot n pizza grease sista love ur Raybabe

I miss you Sarah girl! I wish I could spend a night on the town with you. I'm in dire need of some quality girl time. Love you very much and think of you always.

Full Moon this Saturday night love. I'll be looking at the sky and thinking of you.

October again! A month a month loved by us! I have such fun memories of us in the Fall. Loving you sweet friend. Momma Moneen- we need another Sperryville date!

Full Moon & Halloween...know that I miss you more than words can ever say. Love you Sarah-beara

Happy Halloween Dear Sarah! The bright full moon was shining this morning as the storm clouds were breaking up in the sky. I have so many wonderful memories of us at Halloween. I love you and I miss you.

You are always on my mind sweet friend. Happy Thanksgiving to you even though we never really loved turkey!

The Touch of the Master's Hand 'Twas battered and scarred, And the auctioneer thought it hardly worth his while To waste his time on the old violin, but he held it up with a smile. "What am I bid, good people", he cried, "Who starts the bidding for me?" "One dollar, one dollar, Do I hear two?" "Two dollars, who makes it three?" "Three dollars once, three dollars twice, going for three," But, No, From the room far back a gray bearded man Came forward and picked up the bow, Then wiping the dust from the old violin And tightening up the strings, He played a melody, pure and sweet As sweet as the angel sings. The music ceased and the auctioneer With a voice that was quiet and low, Said "What now am I bid for this old violin?" As he held it aloft with its' bow. "One thousand, one thousand, Do I hear two?" "Two thousand, Who makes it three?" "Three thousand once, three thousand twice, Going and gone", said he. The audience cheered, But some of them cried, "We just don't understand." "What changed its' worth?" Swift came the reply. "The Touch of the Masters Hand." And many a man with life out of tune All battered with bourbon and gin Is auctioned cheap to a thoughtless crowd Much like that old violin A mess of pottage, a glass of wine, A game and he travels on. He is going once, he is going twice, He is going and almost gone. But the Master comes, And the foolish crowd never can quite understand, The worth of a soul and the change that is wrought By the Touch of the Masters' Hand. Myra Brooks Welch

Beautiful Sarah 2006

Dearest Sarah, Tonight is the last full moon of 2012. I can only say that I'm very glad the year will be over. This has not been an easy year and I'm ready to start 2013. We made some good New Years memories especially in 2000. Hard to believe that was 13 years ago and how different out lives turned out. I'll listen to "Wading in the Velvet Sea" since that was always our New Years song. "You won't find moments in a box and someone else will set your clocks. I took a moment from my day; wrapped it up in things you say and mailed it off to you." Love you sweet friend. Happy New Year.

My Beloved, Sarah, It's been so long since I have been able to post (the move, lack of internet connection, tribute wall down, etc). How my heart ached during that time as I always looked forward to the opportunity to speak with you through/on your wall. No need to catch you up to speed as you've held my hand and kept me afloat over these last 3 months. We had (almost) a real winter . . . with SNOW! I love looking at all the pictures of you with your brother and friends and Zeus, of course, playing in the snow. How quickly those days passed. Next week will be spring. I'll be looking for you dancing on and amongst the flowers, my little fairy. There are no words to express what it is like to not have you physically present with me. Not to feel your touch, hug, kiss. Not to hear your laughter or laugh at your jokes. An unbearable loss, sweet one. An empty shell. But your presence is in our cottage in the woods and I know you like it here. And I know that you are with me . . . and I smile. I love you forever, girl. Mommy

It is March again! We hated this month. I've been thinking of you so often. I'm lucky to have known someone that makes me miss them so much. Love you sweet friend.

my sweet Sarah the Crazyness will always b among us!!!! weve laughted 2 that many times. i will always think of u n smile !!!! im with u hunter fuck Brian we know ur number it shouldve been u. Rachel Kathleen Chowning

My dear sweet Sarah the Crazyness is still among us beautiful ! ur home n a better place. i miss u so bad ! ill always smile n think of u. u could make a rainy day sunny! Rachel Kathleen Chowning

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, james lloyd lit a candle.

Prayers for peace and sympathy to the family of Sarah Christovich. She was an amazing light in the lives of many and her memory will forever be in my heart. Our time in school was wonderful and she produced many smiles with her wild and free spirit. Lord, keep those who were near to her under Your wing and bring peace that passes all understanding. -Andrea N. Dove (Haymaker)

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Andrea Dove lit a candle.

Anything... I can do Moneen, let me know. Thinking of you all this night, as do I many a night...

Thank you for your thoughts & prayers. Knowing that you as parents survived this utter devastation comforts me. My hope is to meet you in the very near future, as no one can truly understand the loss & suffering unless they, too, have experienced such. My cell number is 540-550-3866. You also are in my thoughts & prayers. Moneen Christovich

Many thanks for creating such love, kindness, and beauty in which for Sarah's spirit to alas leave this Earth peacefully and with grace. Your support was always there when I felt I could not bear more. You will never be forgotten. God Bless You. Moneen C. Christovich

Many thanks to Omps Funeral Home for creating such love, kindness, sensitivity, and beauty in which for Sarah to alas leave this Earthly environment peacefully, with grace, and free-spirit in tact. Your supprt was always there when I thought I could not bear more. You will never be forgotten. God Bless You. Moneen C. Christovich

Thank you for your contribution to our Sarah's memorial site.

Martha, my dear, sweet friend . . . thank you for all your love & prayers & for visiting us at the funeral home. Let's get together soon. Love, Moneen

My sweet Kristin, your love & support have meant the world to me, as you were a best friend to Sarah. I can still hear you two giggling up in her room! Thanks for reminding me of the rooster pants! The pants with the flames are definetly for you now. You are such an incredible young woman & you should be very proud of yourself. Thanks for the pictures for Sarah's service & for reading the beautiful poem. Your strength held me together in weak moments. You are my second daughter & I love you very much. Moneen

I remember these moments captured in time quite well. What fun in Toronto! Love, Moneen

Your contribution cannot be measured monetarily but only in your depth of love for Sarah. Again all my love to you and your husband. Love always, Moneen

Thank you for your thoughts, prayers, & remembrance of Sarah.

Thank you for remembering our sweet Sarah. Moneen

Oh, Diana, your friendship has seen me through good & not so good times throughout our childhood. It's so good to be reconnected with you. Your love, thoughts, & prayers are deeply appreciated. Love, Moneen

Leah, Thank you for your love, support, & encouraging words. Additionally, thank you for your unending support of my sister. Your kindness goes beyond words. Love, Moneen

Ashley, Thank you for your kind remembrances of Sarah. She is a shining star in the constellation of Leo now. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

Andrea, thank you so much for your fond remembrances of Sarah. She was amazing, wasn't she? It was good to meet you recently. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

James, thank you for your condolances and youthful remembrances. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

Sweet Rachel, Thank you for speaking of "the crazyness"! As very young girls & best friends, you both created that. Most-of-all, thank you for staying close to me throughout this tragedy & for all your support. Sarah would want us to continue to make a rainy day sunny. Love you, Moneen

Indeed, Hunter. Thank you for your condolances. Moneen

Thank you for your condolances & remembrances of Sarah & Brandi. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

My dear friends, Thank you for being by my side & for your beautiful remembrances of Sarah. She was so special. Your love has helped hold me together.

Dear Betty, Thank you for remembering Sarah & our family. We never expected her physical life to end this way. Love, Moneen

Thank you, Nikki, for your remembrance of Sarah. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

Ashley, Thank you for your remembrance & condolances. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

Ginger, , thank you for your condolances & remembering that great smile of Sarah's. I' sure she is smiling & dancing now. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

Again, many, many thanks for your gift in honor of Sarah. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

Alyson, thank you for your remembrance of our Sarah. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

Brandi, Your tribute was beautiful & captured who Sarah truly is/was. She was an Angel with a pure soul. Special friendships never end. Thank you for your kind thoughts & condolances. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

Holly, thank you for your kind remembrances & condolances. Moneen

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen Christovich lit a candle.

"There's so much to do Those so much to be There are infinite posibilities and love is the key . . . I don't want to leave this world Before all of its mysteries are unfurled And I want to know love and be carressed. And as for the future, I'll make up the the rest. Life is a journey. This is a test. - Sarah R. Christovich 2010

When Sarah was working in an assisted living home locally, she called (mom) asking me to bring a forgotten item. When I arrived, she met me in the hallway, where residents were waiting to receive their medication(s). She introduced me as her mom to each of the residents. As we spoke, an elderly woman began to cry loudly. Sarah went to her, kneeled at eye-level, took the woman's hands in hers, and asked what was wrong. Edna (not official name) responded that she could not find her purse. Soon her cries became sobs. Sarah said not to worry, that she would find it and went off to look. Returning Sarah gave Edna a purse. Edna was all smiles and kissed Sarah on the cheek. As she rejoined me, I remarked how glad I was that she found the purse. Sarah looked at me and whispered, "Mom, Edna doesn't have a purse, so I gave her mine." Sarah had a heart of gold. She loved working with the elderly and animals and all were to be treated with dignity and respect in her eyes. This world would be a better place if we all practiced Sarah's humanity.

A few years ago, Sarah worked at a local assisted living home. One day I received a call to bring an item she had forgotten. She met me in a lobby where residents were waiting to receive their medications. Sarah introduced me to each person as "her mom". As we talked, an elderly woman began to cry loudly. Sarah went to Edna (not official name), kneeled to be at eye-level, took Edna's hands in hers, and asked what was wrong. Edna sobbed that she could not find her purse. Sarah told her not to worry that she would bring her purse. A few minutes later, she returned handing a purse to Edna, who was all smiles and kissed Sarah on the cheek. I told her that I was glad she found Edna's purse to which Sarah replied, "Mom, Edna doesn't have a purse. I gave her mine." Sarah had/has a heart of good. She loved working with the elderly and animals. As you have read from others' comments, she did not judge. Everyone should be treated with dignity and respect. How I miss her! Sarah's mom, Moneen

Thank you Andrea for sharing your condolances & high school memories of Sarah with me when we recently met.

Yes, James, I remember those days. Thank you for your condolances & remembrance. Sarah's mom, Moneen

As second-graders, Rachel, you & Sarah invented the "Crazyness"! Thank you from my heart for always being there for Sarah and now being here for me. Your support has been incredible. Love you, Moneen

Thank you for your kind thoughts & remembrances. Sara's mom, Moneen

Dear Betty, thank you for your thoughts & codolances. Losing Sarah has been devastating. The support from others' is comforting. Moneen

My dearest friends, your love & support have seen me through some tough times and now with the loss of Sarah. Thank you for being here for me. Love, Moneen

Thank you, Nikki, for your thoughtfulness & condolances. Sarah's mom' Moneen

Ashley, thank you for remembering Sarah. Sarah's mom, Moneen

Thank you, Ginger, for the fond memories of Sarah & your condolances. Sarah's mom, Moneen

Julie, thank you for remembering Sarah. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

Brandi, you were a very valued friend of Sarah's. Thank you for your memories & thoughtful condolances. Sarah's mom, Moneen

Thank you, Allyson, for your kind thoughts & remembrances. Sarah's mom, Moneen

Yes, Brandi, Sarah was and now is an Angel. Moneen

Holly, thank you for your kind remembrances & condolance. Sarah's mom, Moneen

Sweet Laura, how Sarah loved you as a cousin & friend. She was/is so proud of you. What will we do without her? You & your great husband coming from Chicago to be at her memorial meant so much to me. Hope to see you again soon. Love, Aunt Moneen

These pictures bring back such fond remembrances! Love you, Moneen

Dearest Kristin, how can I ever thank you for your constant support and kindness. You are a giving person with a heart of gold. Sarah loved/loves you incredibly and so do I. There are no words to thank you fully for reading at her service, naming a star for her, providing photos, and being at my side when needed. You have seen me through the initial shock of losing our Sarah. I love you. Moneen

Cassie, thank you for your thoughts & condolances. Sarah has always spoken so fondly of you. Let's never forget Sarah's incredible smile. May it continue to lite our faces. Sarah's mom, Moneen

What fun we had in Toronto! And who was always late for the bus . . . Sarah! Moneen

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kelly Chin lit a candle.

Thank you, Kelly, for all your love & support. Love, Moneen

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Krishna Miriyala (Ani's mom) lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Farzana Amin lit a candle.

Prayers for peace and sympathy to the family of Sarah Christovich. Farzana(Ibrahim's mom)

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Heather Phillips lit a candle.

Thank you so much for your remembrance of my sweet Sarah. Sincerely, Moneen

Thank you so very much for your remembrance of my Sarah. Moneen

When Sarah moved from her crib to the "big girl's" bed, she'd frequently would get out of her bed and come downstairs. One of those times, I instructed her as usual to return to her bed. This night she began to climb those stairs, sucking her two fingers with her "blankie" held below her nose. Sarah stopped, looked at her Dad and said, " I love you my precious, Daddy!" Needless-to-say, she was back on the sofa with Daddy reading her favorite books! How she loved her Daddy!

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Nina Phan lit a candle.

Moneen, Sarah was so much like you. Like you she was passionate, danced literally to her own interpretation of what life should be, nonjudgemental, intelligent, artistic, well spoken....and sadly those who contain so much emotion are often self destructive. I miss you Moneen and always wished you could step outside yourself and be amazed at how gifted and beautiful you are. An old friend, Jennifer Daniels

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Nina Phan lit a candle.

We love you very much Moneen and we will always be here for you. ~Love Kelly.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Martha Marchand lit a candle.

My Heart, thoughts and Prayers go out to Sarah's family. I never had the privliedge of knowing this beautiful girl but, as being a parent who has also has lost a child, I do understand your pain and am so very deeply sorry. If there would be anything I could do, please do not hesitate to contact me. God Bless you all Sincerely, Robert and Patti Payne

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Robert and Patti Payne lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

I was so sad to read of Sarah's death. I taught both Sarah and Matt at Sherando and I cared for both of them a lot. I always take my little granddaughter to see Nutcracker and I will forever treasure the memory of Sarah's dancing in that performance. She was a beautiful dancer and a free spirit. Please accept my condolences.

4 files added to the tribute wall

go to heaven where you need to be take a load off have a toast with the angeles and be easy you surely will be missed

My deepest condolences to the Christovich family. I remember Sarah as a young girl with her blonde hair flying as she rode her bike. No words can ease your pain, but know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and I would give you a hug if I could. Sharlene Stowers

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Michelle Wilson lit a candle.

I can remember growing up and riding the bus with Sarah. We lived in the same small town. She was an amazing dancer with an amazing soul. God has a wonderful angel yet she was still to young to be taken...oh how she will be missed. My thoughts and prayers are with the Christiovich family. Knowing Sarah most of my life and going to Sherando with her was a gift I'll cherish to the end....

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Bradley Phillips lit a candle.

i dint know her like most but she was one of truest people i ever knew her spirit will always be with us

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Diana Prete lit a candle.

Words cannot express the sadness I feel for Sarah's friends and family. I never had the opportunity fo meet Sarah, though I've seen pictures of her and she is as beautiful as my dear friend, Moneen. My thoughts are with you all as I send prayers and heartfelt sympathy to all who loved her. May God be with you and help you all to bear the pain of this devastating loss.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Cassie Williams lit a candle.

I really cant believe that i just read this in the Winchester Star. Sarah was an amazing and fun loving girl. I always had a smile on my face when she was around. I am heartbroken to hear this. RIP Sarah. My prayers go out to her family and friends.

Moneen, I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that you're in my prayers and that your mom and dad were waiting for Sarah and will watch over her now.

Although its been years, It seems like yesterday when I danced with Sarah in countless Nutcrackers. She was my best dance pal, and I always looked forward to seeing her in class. She made me laugh and was an amazing dancer. We shared many years on stage and behind the curtains and had many moments I will never forget. We used to trade clothes, and I'll never forget her brown bell bottoms with large orange flowers she let me borrow. She had an amazing and unique style. Although I haven't seen her in awhile, I will never forget her. It was so easy to be around her, it was so easy to be her friend. Those years will not be forgotten. Praying for all.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Elizabeth lit a candle.

RIP Sarah! My thoughts and prayers and with her family!

I went to High School with Sarah. She was always funny and was nice to everyone. She will truly be missed. My thoughts and prayers are with her family. Kristen Owens

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Arthur H. Sperry lit a candle.

I was very sad to hear about Sarah. She was in my Latin class at Sherando High School when she was a student there. I remember her as a very sweet and sensitive person. She will be missed!

I went to High School with Sarah. She was a funny girl and was always nice to everyone. She will truly be missed. My thoughts and prayers go out to her family and friends. Kristen Owens

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristen lit a candle.

Kristen uploaded an image to the slideshow.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Laura Chesslo Langes lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Ashley Levi (Ytzen) lit a candle.

Sarah and I were in band together during middle school. She was a free spirit and joy to be around. My prayers go out to her friends and family during this difficult time.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Wade Marshall Bly lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, jennifer jenkins lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Karen L. Hoak lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Mary Anne Alderfer lit a candle.

You flew swift, sMiles all around, then you left us weeping here on the ground...you now look down froM Heaven above, watching over the one's you loved.Now your in a better place, flying with angels and wings Made of lace.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Debbe Clager lit a candle.

Thank you so much, Arthur. She truly was all those things. God Bless you. Sarah's mom, Moneen.

My heartful thanks, Mary Anne.

My dear long-lost friend. Thank you for your remembrance. We prayed this day would never come, but God called her home. She suffers no more.

Sarah valued your friendship. Thank you for your kind thoughts. Sarah's mom, Moneen

Thank you, Wade, for being a good friend. Moneen

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, bernie steed lit a candle.

I will never forget the absolutely beautiful little blonde haired, blue-eyed ballerina. I was very proud of you! I am so devastated for her parent's and brother's loss. As a parent myself, I can't fathom it, and I still am finding it hard to believe this is even true. I know she was welcomed with open arms by her Grammy and Pappy and I am sure he is dancing a polka with her until we are all reunited again. I love you and will miss you Sarah. Our family has lost such a bright, talented, sweet soul. Love, your cousin, Tanja

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Tanja (Chesslo) Aucremanne lit a candle.

My thoughts, prayers and heartfelt sympathy go out to the Christovich family. She is at peace now with God. Dale Watten

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Matt Baker lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Sara Gurley (Smith) lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Holly Pennington (Holly Thompson) lit a candle.

Sarah and I were best friends in elementary school. We had so many good times together. Although we grew apart as we got older, I will always cherish the time that I spent with her. She was a beautiful and talented person. My thoughts and prayers are with her family. ~Holly (Thompson) Pennington

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Brandi Nichole Marple lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Allyson S. Marco lit a candle.

Sarah, there not even words. I wish that I could have seen you more over the past year but the last time we did a few months ago...it was a very pleasant surprise. I can think of nothing but your smiling free spirited loving self. I just hope that you are now at peace babes. I love you sarah!!

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, JULIE JARDINE lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Ginger Higgs lit a candle.

While I had not seen Sarah in a couple of years, I will always remember her smile, her loving spirit and the peace I felt when around her. My thoughts and prayers go out to her family and friends

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Ashley Kasecamp lit a candle.

I found out early sunday morning about you and I'm still shocked. You were a rare breed and one of a kind I must say! You showed every one unconditional love and didn't expect anything in return. I learned a lot about myself, where I've been, and where i was going from the times we kicked it. You will be missed by so many of us. I know you are dancing the streets of gold right now doing the "Running Man". You were a lean mean dancing machine! :) I will poor out a Four Loko for my Homie. I will always remember you SRC...

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, nikki mills lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Connie and Cecil Clem lit a candle.

My thoughts are with Sarah's family tonight.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Nina Phan lit a candle.

Jen, Yes, Sarah was all of those things and more. Brillant people are often self-destructive. The world either does not understand them or they do not understand this world. I find comfort that Sarah no longer has to face this world's battles. Thank you for your thoughts. I've really missed you for a long time! We must get together. As for me, if I dwelled on my characteristics, I probably would not be me. I love you. Moneen

With Sarah's 29th birthday approaching I've found myself missing her so very much. I bought a picture frame that states "It is not important how long a star shines but how brilliant it shines." I've been remembering how many hikes Sarah I and took down skyline drive. Especially when I was first learning to drive and I took my white jeep everywhere with her. I spent my 16th birthday with her and she bought me a tie dye shirt that I still own. I'll never go to our waterfall without remembering all our fun times there. Most of the time it was just us girls but on occasion boys that passed through our lives went with us. Sarah and I also spent a lot of time meditating. I find myself evoking her energy when I sit in my healing room. She was also the first person that I ever gave a reiki session and now I work on 1,000 pound horses. I went to a zumba class last week and laughed out loud at what a horrible dancer I am. Sarah would have had a good laugh too. I miss you Sarah so very much. I'm so glad that we have a safe place to share your spirit. My thoughts and prayers continue to be with Sarah's family.

Keep the memories/stories coming! This is what loving someone is all about. Sharing the joy, sadness, and power of love. Love you Moneen!

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Teresa Lopez lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

Thinking of you Moneen.

And you, as well, Kristin. Not sure how I'm going to make it through her birthday on Aug 1st. Will be a tough one.

Those were fun times for the two of you! You'll have to take me to the waterfall someday. Sarah told me about it but I've never been. Love you, Kristin.

Si, I have no choice. Writing about Sarah is of great comfort to me. Love you, too.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

I will take you there Moneen! Sending you lots of love, light, and positive energy. I'm looking forward to seeing you soon.

We love you very much Moneen and we will always be here for you. ~Love Kelly

Oh, Kelly, you have a heart as big as the universe! Gracias, Moneen

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Nina, Thank you so much for your remembrances of my Sarah. Each day is a struggle. I'm praying it gets better. Your love & support mean so much to me. And give my little guy a hug & kiss from me! Please stay in touch. Moneen

Sarah - my dancer. She danced ballet since age 5 with 95% of her studies at Vostrikov Academy. How she loved to dance! In 1993 she danced "Clara" in the nutcracker and danced exquisitively. While I sat praying, "Please don't let her fall, please don't let her fall", my brother cried tears of joy. The actual "nutcracker" prompt fell and broke when Clara's brother threw it on the stage dislodging one arm, she did not panic, but rather beautifully improvised. The stage was hers and she danced it as such. There was never a better or more wicked witch than when she danced "Hansel & Gretel". Her performance was outstanding and people sitting around us, not knowing we were her parents, whispered, 'Who is this girl? She's incredible!" Later backstage, her maestro told me that Sarah had improvised nearly 75% of the dance! After the performance, the dancers sat on stage and the audience was able to ask questions of them. The children approached her, mostly hiding behind their mothers' skirts. One little boy found the courage to ask, "Why are your teeth so black?" to which Sarah replied in her wickedly, funny voice, "Because I ate toooo much can-day!" Her sense of humor and wit lit many faces and most of all ours. Sarah was strong, a powerful source, and completely believed in herself. Her gifts were many: dancing, writing poems and prose. When she entered to 10th grade, her guidance counselor met with us and urged us to allow Sarah to get her GED and go on to college. 'We have nothing to offer her here", he said. Hindsight is 20/20. She was terribly bored in school and, much to the school's chagrin, she created her own entertainment while there. But gifted children are frequently punished for being so bright. When in fourth grade, Sarah would come home from school telling me she did not have recess once again, but had to stand against the wall and watch her friends play. Being an educator, I quickly scheduled an meeting with her teacher. When asked about why Sarah missed so many recesses, the teacher replied, "Because she asks too many questions?" What - too many questions??? Sarah had intense curiosty about the world in which she lived. In the end, I guess either the world could not understand who she was/is or she could not understand this world. Sharing these stories give me peace during this wretched time of grief. I am glad to have the opportunity to do so. Bear with me. Sarah's mom, Moneen

The first song on Sarah's tribute video was written by her father, he playing lead guitar and my son, Matthew, on trombone. The second was one of her favorite Jimi Hendrix tunes. I failed to mention that Sarah also played a mean trombone! Sarah's mom, Moneen

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sara, Thank you for your remembrance of Sarah. Sarah's mom, Moneen

Matt, Sarah valued your friendship and all the fun had when the two of you were together. Thank you for remembering my girl. Moneen

Dale, Thank you for your kind thoughts and condolences. Yes, she's finally at peace, but how I miss my sweet Sarah. Moneen

My Sweet Tanja, Thank you so much for loving our Sarah so deeply. Your trip here to say 'until we meet again' and to be here for me and Matthew meant so much to us. Her death has hit hard and I'm clinging to those wonderful times we shared. Know how much you mean to me. You are in my heart forever. Will email you soon. Love, Aunt Moneen

Sarah, elementary school age, had an ongoing joke with the father of very close friends. It went like this: M R ducks. M R not. M R too . . . see M itty, bitty eyes! Not sure I captured its entirety, but the two of them would laugh hysterically. Sarah always had a great sense of humor . . . always made others laugh. So what does her mother now drive? M R-2 (Spyder) Sarah's Mom

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Thank you for your remembrance of Sarah. Sarah's mom, Moneen

Mike, Thank you for your remembrance of Sarah. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

Kristen, Thank you so much for your remembrance of Sarah. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

Diane & Kristen, Thank you for your remembrance of Sarah. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

Kelli, Thank you for your remembrance of Sarah. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

Elizabeth, Thank you for your fond remembrances of Sarah. How she loved to dance and make others laugh. Believe it or not, those bell bottoms with the orange flowers are still here. Sarah's Mom, Moneen

How I miss you, my Sarah, but you are always in my heart. Love, Mom

Teresa, What would I do without the support & love of my TEAM? Am trying to move forward, but tomorrow is Sarah's birthday. I want to celebrate, yet my heart still aches. Thank you for your kind remembrance of Sarah. Love, Moneen

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

When my mother, who had Alzheimer's Disease, lived with me, Sarah was her primary care-taker. Mom wasn't quite clear as to who Sarah was but knew she should know her. She waited eagerly for Sarah's arrival each day and was thrilled when she saw her. When I would come home from work, I'd hear the music blaring and upon opening the kitchen door, there would be my mom dancing throughout the house with Sarah and frequently her boyfriend. Mom was thrilled and so very, very happy! What a gift Sarah gave to her in the last months of mom's life. She loved her 'Grammy' dearly. Sarah took under her wing the weak, the downtrodden, those cast out by others, people considered 'different', the elderly, and the homeless regardless of race or class. Sarah loved people unconditionally and they adored her. I know why God put Sarah on this earth, I don't know why He took her home so early. Sarah's mom, Moneen

I have a special evening planned to celebrate Sarah's Birthday. Wish I was closer and we could take a hike/celebrate together. It does involve balloons and Janis! I'll be thinking about you tomorrow. Please call if you need anything.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Sweet Sarah!!! Today we celebrate your life and all the happy moments we spent together. Hope you're en pointe and twirling, tiny dancer. I love you with all my heart and soul. Mom

Happy 29th Birthday in heaven Sarah. I love you.

HAPPY 29th BIRTHDAY, MY SWEET SARAH!!! Love you forever, Mom

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Nina Phan lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Jennifer Daniels lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sarah, On your birthday, as I toasted you,sang Janis & Cat, the yellow, pink, & mylar balloons (with card to you attached) were released into the night sky. I followed them as far as I could, but then they rose to the stars. I felt your spirit with me and you were smiling and laughing. It's difficult to imagine another year without you physically with me. On the other hand, I know you have no use for your physical body anymore nor do these earthly worries haunt you. My girl, you're with God and free now. Be the happiest you can be as you suffer no more. Pray for the rest of us who wait to join you. Love, Moneen

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, hunter steed lit a candle.

Smile on me today, Sarah. Having a rough time. I love you, girl. Mom

My Sweet Sarah, Remember when you suspended yourself from high school??!!! You had to run from Latin class to another class, which was on the other side of the school. The bell rang and you were standing inside the classroom doorway; however, you were not 2 inches inside the door and were told to go to the office. Your debate fell upon silent ears. You spoke your mind, regarding injustices, as only you could, went to the office, promptly suspended yourself, and drove home - never to return again. Oh, we should've sent you to college in 10th grade as your high school counselor recommended! You battled injustice for all people for the rest of your short-lived life. How proud I was of you for taking on the battles of other, who were not as strong or could not debate as well as you. How I love and miss you, Sarah. Love you, Mom

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Well, girl, we're off to Atlantic City. Of course, you're coming - I don't go anywhere without you! Now, since you'll be looking at the casino from above, please send some hints regarding lucky numbers! Soaking in the sun, you'll be drawn to the rhythms of the ocean, as a siren sings to the lost. One day soon, I will take the remainder of your ashes to Positano, Italia and spread them in the Tyrranhean Sea, where the mermaids called to the sailors from the Syraneuse Islands. We'll dance in the streets with the residents of Sorrento! Then Roma, where you'll join fellow artists on the Piazza Navona. I want you to meet Michele, the finger puppeteer. My loss is diminishing as I realize fully now that you are with me each moment every day. I love you my, Sarah. Mom Miss hearing from you, Sarah's friends.

Yeah Moneen! So glad your getting away to enjoy the last bits of the summer harvest season. Please call me when you get back. I haven't been able to get a response about a candle/copy of Sarah's video and I haven't wanted to intefere with your own grieving process. I'm planning a trip to Sorrento next May. I had something I wanted to drop in the ocean for Sarah this weekend when I was in Charleston SC but it just didn't feel like the right place. I'm thinking the outer banks as I know she loved it there too. Since it was Jerry week in the music world I've listen to a ton of music that reminds me of Sarah. Such creative minds are often lost to early in our society. Mostly because they are just to good, pure for our world.

Kristin, yes, it was good to get away, but for now there is no escaping the loss of Sarah. I try to feel joy, but only feel numb. However, I've joined a great grief support group online for parents of adult children. It's powerful. I'm so glad that you are going to Sorrento. I know it like the back of my hand & have many good friends there. Let's get together so I can share information. I always wanted to take Sarah to l'Italia. I will spread some of Sarah's ashes in the Trryhean Sea in Positano, the Gulf of Napoli from Sorrento, & in Roma. Take my candle & I'll get another. Can't wait to see you. Let me know when you are in Middletown. Love you.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Since joining the online support group for parents who have lost adult children, I've received incredible support & understanding from parents suffering as I do. Sarah, I hope you meet 28 year old Brianna in Heaven, for you seem like kindred souls. I love you, baby. Mom

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Sarah, One of those days when I miss incredibly your presence, your essence, your humorous facial expressions, your hugs, your beauty, and being able to touch your long, beautiful hair. You are still with me . . . I feel you surround me with comfort and love. But you are now celestial. A fairy? You so loved fairies. Are you sitting on a moonbeam smiling upon us? Jersey, Sammy, and Momo miss you and come to me for comfort.and answers, but they would love a visit from you! Kisses to you my sweet, sweet Sarah. Love you with all my heart, Moneen

Given the date of her birthday, Sarah could have gone to kindergarten when she was barely 5 years. She still sucked her two fingers and held her "blankie" simultaneously under her nose. We felt she was too young and waited another year. Well, after her first day of kindergarten, I met her at the end of our driveway, as she insisted on riding the bus (always so independent). Sarah and I entered the kitchen where, after depositing her bookbag and lunch box, she put those little hands on her hips, looked me straight in the eye, and said, "You made a mistake! I should have gone last year. I already know everything in kindergarten. I'm going to be bored all my school life!" And right she was. Sarah was bored all her school years. She did have a couple of people who understood her completely and marveled at her intelligence: her junior high music teacher and her high school counselor. They treated her with dignity and respect. As an educator myself in the public school system, I feel the right to say every teacher needs to follow the example of the two aforementioned teachers. Accept the gifts and uniqueness in every child. Teach to each child's level and raise the bar rather than teaching to the average student. When treated with dignity and respect, students will respond likewise. There is no room for "power" and "control" in the classroom. Management is the key word. Forgive me Sarah for having allowed you to experience all the negativity in school simply because you were too bright and would never submit to injustices. I hope you are having all the recesses you missed in the fourth grade in Heaven now. Swing high and far, my girl! I can see you now. Love you forever, Mom

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Today was my first day back to work, Sarah. Everything seems so insignificant compared to our loss of your vibtant self. I know you are at peace and serene and am thankful for that. But I miss you, my baby, incredibly. Pray for us left behind. Am awaiting the day God rejoins us. I love you, my Sarah. Mom

I Am A Free Spirit I will heal and not harm. I will love and not hate. I will restore and not demolish. I will help and not hurt. I will seek to understand and not judge or dismiss. I will grow and not stagnate. I will be respectful and not rude. I will be compassinoate and not cruel. I will have empathy and not apathy. I will be mindful and not needless. I will be strong and not weak. I will be corageous and not cowardly. I will dare to dream and not relinquish hope. I will be open-minded and not closed shut. I will plant peace and not strife. I will inspire and not crush. I will thrive and not be thwarted. I will live in the moment and not dwell in the past or on the future. I will cherish my loved ones, animals, and Mother Earth and never take them for granted. I will embrace my uniqueness and never be generic. I will make magic and not malignancy. I will create and not destroy. I will be free and never confined. I am a free spirit who is grateful for my life and freedom...today. This poem was written by Christine Bruness 2008 and reminds me of Sarah. Missing you on this rainy day Sarah girl.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

Sorry, my Sarah, that I've not posted for a couple of days - had a pacemaker device implant (as you know). Told them my heart was broken. While under anesthesia, we were together . . . two little girls frolicking, dancing, & singing in fields of wildflowers. When the surgical nurses awakened me, I was smiling with tears of happiness and calling your name - how I will treasure those moments together. Love you, girl, Moneen

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Sarah, I miss you more and more each day. Folks in the grief support group say they still cannot look at pictures, etc. of their deceased child. For me, I can't be surrounded enough by you. You are my light and strength. All my love, Mom

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Barbara Ann Marple lit a candle.

My Sarah, I miss you terribly today. A day passes and a new day revolves but grief is ever present. Some days I handle it better than others. I love you always. Mom

You loved my Mother of Pearl rosaries from Roma. I'm glad you found God before you went to meet Him. I know you are at Peace. All my love to you, Mom

Sarah, Keep reading the lyrics to one of your favorite Hendrix tunes, Up From the Skies, the second tune on your tribute video. The lyrics are so you or vice versa. Hugs and kisses. Mom

Moneen I had no idea. I hope that you are healing fast. Sending all my love and light your way. I plan to be in Middletown sometime this fall. I think of you and Sarah everyday. Miss you and love you.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sarah, I love you, girl. There's such a void in my life and heart, but I am released knowing that you are at peace and your spirit is soaring. Thank you for the signs that you are still with me. All my love, Mom

Sweet girl, Just wanted you to know that your babies, Sammy, Jersey, and Momo, miss you and love you very much. They know you are with them and feel your gentle touch. For me, I just want to feel you in my arms. I still hear your laughter, smell your scent, and see you dance. Kiss Grammy and Pappy for me. All my love, Mom

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Love you, baby. Mom

Miss you so much, Sarah. Miss our "girl talk"! Your insights were always right on target. Guide me as to what I should do. Love always, Mom

The last chance I had to spend quality time with Sarah there were 3 feet of snow on the ground. She was wearing that horrible blue wig and she ran outside and picked me up. She then proceeded to carry me into the house. My husbands first words to her were "damn girl, your strong." Sarah was strong, brave, and tough! The time before that she came out to my parents farmhouse and we spent time catching up on the events of our life. We climbed a huge tree in the front yard and watched the sunset. Sarah cooked dinner that night and helped me host old friends. I never knew that she could cook like that and I'm thankful for these most recent moments with her. I miss you most when the moon is full soul sister...

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sweet Sarah, My soul aches but is eased by Kristin's friendship. We've scheduled getting together October 8th or 9th to hike to your favorite waterfalls & celebrate your continued life. Think there will be reading of your poems and singing Janis! Have been given the okay to clean out your room, but cannot do it. Maybe some day, but not now. You are everywhere in your room. It's my safe haven. Not certain I'll ever fully accept your death. I look for and await you each day. Feeling your arms around me is my comfort and joy. I want to release you & not hold you to this earthly world, but please, please be with me regularly. I love you forever, Mom

Love you, Sarah. Mom

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Sarah, I still cannot believe that you are not physically with me anymore. Strength escapes me. Yet, you were so strong in many ways and I'm certain that you continue to be. You were always there for me during rough times. Your friends have told me that you expressed the same about me. I just want you alive and with me again. I know I will never be the same. Will I ever feel joy again? Come feel my heart. I love you forever. Mom

I'm so excited about this visit. I'll make a CD to listen too. Sarah's spirit will be with us! We will make it a joyous event!

Sorry, I wrote a long excerpt only for it to be obliterized in cyberspace. Well, I know you know what I wrote. My pain only increases each day. Perhaps when those demons who overdosed you are arraigned, I will begin to feel some peace. Sorry, I am a Libra & justice nust be served - until my last dying brearth, my Sarah. I know that you did not to die. I know that. They just waited until I was away, before they took action. Your death will be revenged, that your father, brother, and I promise you. Much love, Mom

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

Sarah, Remember when Mr. Whiskers was missing? We tried to reassure you Mr. Whiskers was possibly still alive - just wandering throughout the neighborhood. Well, Matthew set us straight! Our service was held for Mr. Whiskers, after your father dug nearly 3 times before he could hit dirt & not rock in our yard. You were so strong and brave and patient. Remember, we planted the lovely Audrey Hepburn roses on Whisker's grave. Those roses still grow, as I know you do so in Heaven. How I love and miss you, my baby. Smell the roses, baby. All my love, Mom

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sarah, How do I go on without you? Teach me. I love you so! Mom

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, jennifer daniels lit a candle.

Sarah, Today I went to a SLP meeting where money was collected for us. So much appreciated, yet so much a heartbreak. My Sarah, I just want you to be with me. I can't go on without you. I just can't. I love you with all my heart & soul & just want to be with you. Yes, I'm grounded to this earth but want to be with you. Love you, Mommy

I miss you, Jen.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, MoneenC. Christovich lit a candle.

In the loss of your daughter . . . May her memory comfort you, so that she lives always in your heart. May her spirit enfold you, so that you always know the peace and promise of eternity. And may the love and thoughts of others console you, so that you know that you are not alone.

Love you always, my sweet girl. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Sarah, Today, I actually felt a moment of joy for the first time since your death. My Bhuddist manicurist and I talked philosophy and spiritualism in reference to your death. He helped me to transition to a higher level. I know you sent him to me. Mille grazie, mi amore. Please come sing to me as a Nightingale, as you did for 6 straight days after your death. I want to hear you sing. All my love to you, sweet Sarah. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sarah, How I miss you. Driving into Middletown tonight, I saw a Pizza Hut delivery car. Tears came to my eyes. You loved pizza and I love you with all my heart and soul. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

And you would accept the seasons of your heart just as you have always accepted that seasons have passed over your fields and you would watch with serenity through the winters of your grief. - Kahlil Gibran

I love you, my Sarah. I pray you are happy and serene. Love, Mommy

I had a dream about you at the beach this last week Sarah. You looked so healthy and it seemed to real. It was good to see you in a dream, pretty lady.

Sweet girl, This picture of your happy, smiling face warms my heart. I had just returned from a summer trip to Italy, where I bought all your birthday presents . . . the dress you wear, the earrings, necklace, bronze carnivale masks. I feel the happiness of this day, your hugs & kisses, as if it were yesterday. Julio sends his love & laughed heartily regarding the 'goat lips' & sound, as well as the some of the pranks you pulled to lift others spirits - to make them laugh under some of the worst circumstances. You had such a gift for this. We agreed that you are 'one of a kind'. How I miss you walking through the door and saying "What's up woman?" in that graveling voice. I can't accept that you are gone. I want to hold you in my arms with your head under my chin, as you always sought. I love you, my Sarah. Mommy

I love you, Sarah and miss you terribly. Love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Sarah, Am, about to leave for PA for the weekend. Gwen's son is getting married, of course you probably already know this. Wish you were coming as well. You were always such fun at weddings and everyone loved to watch you dance. I love you so, Mommy

Beautiful wedding. So hard to feel joy when I will never see you married. Never see you in a gorgeous white gown, looking like the princess that you are. A sad moment, but there is always tomorrow. Love you, Sarah, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, liz wong lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sarah, Tonight I found a poem that you wrote on May 10, 2011. It was profoundly insightful - too raw to share here. Knowing how you suffered breaks my heart. I always tried to make life worth living for you. I never gave up on you, Sarah, and it comforts me to know that you knew/know that. Wshing I could hold you in my arms , , , all my love to you, Mommy

I can hear her saying What's Up Woman now. That made me laugh and smile. I was thinking about the time Sarah and I went hiking on Syline Drive and met a guy visiting from Spain. He took several pictures of Sarah because she was "such a pretty American." I hope she and I are framed in house somewhere in Spain...lol. Looking forward to seeing you soon.

Thank you, Liz. Sarah was/is so beautiful in so many ways. Either the world was not ready for her, or she was not ready for this world. I miss her terribly. Moneen

My Sarah, I wanted to let you know that "Pepe Le Meu" (your favorite stuffed animal) has not been forgtten. He has his spot in the 'favorite' chair in the parlor & I hug him each day. I just wish I could find your "blankie". Each day I go into your room and lay on your bed, as your scent is still there. I know I should be beyond this, however, each day I pray that you will walk through the kitchen door. I can feel what it is/was like to hold you in my arms and to feel the light brush of a kiss as you said, "I love you, Mommy.' All of my love to you, sweet angel, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

I love you, girl. Mommy

Sweet Sarah, I know why God put you on this earth, if only for a short time. In your own intuitive, spiritual way, you helped so many people realize who they were, the purpose of living, and a reason to go on. This is reflected in the many tributes on this wall. You may say, "well, anyone could do that". But people avoid, do not take the time to know the people you have helped. I have witnesses it first-hand. You brought them into our home when they had nowhere else to go. You fed them, you made them laugh and see the humorous side of life. You connected them spiritually, my little fairy. Sarah, you helpedo many people who otherwise would have been throw-aways. You are a unique spirit and soul. I am so proud to be your mother. And, most of all, you should be extremely proud of yourself. I see you glowing in Heaven with God, the angels, and all the relatives that you so loved. Grammy must be thrilled to have you next to her. I know that I cannot selfishly hold you earthbound. The huge picture of us in the parlor keeps falling down. Is it your way of saying I must let you go? I can do that, if it does not mean enjoying the sights of you, your precious items, the scent of your bed, your written poems. I need a way to still feel your presence here - it comforts me. How I miss all of your being. How I love you with all my heart. Mommy

Looking forward to seing you as well, my Kristin.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sarah, I spoke of you so much today. People do not realize that I want to talk about you. I need to talk about the wonderful person you are. It's the weekend. In Heaven, is every day/moment/time period like an ongoing fun weekend? I hope so! I can't wait to be with you again. Death is no longer a fear, as it will unite us forever. For now I must stay earthbound as your brother needs me and I need him. You are my angel. I love you with all my heart. Mommy

"Come sail away, come sail away, come sail away with me . . . " Today I went with Ashlee, her mom and bridesmaids shopping for a wedding gown for Ashlee. She/we found the perfect dress! It was fun, yet I kept thinking of how I would never see you in a wedding gown & get married. Heartbreak for me, yet I know you are far beyond that. You've not visited me for awhile. Please come to me. I love you, my sweet Sarah. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Julio and I send our love to you. We love youso. Mommy

My Sarah, Haven't written for a couple of days (fell at work - injured knee) but you are in my mind constantly. Kind of down. Will life ever get easier? Keep wondering what God has in mind for me. Would you give me a hint?! Hope you are dancing on the clouds! My love to you, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

Sweet Sarah, You loved my mother of pearl rosaries from Roma and used to wear them as a necklace. You held them at your service. The Virgin Mary is now at your side. Oh, we have your brother's wedding coming up in July - a very exciting time. Your presence will be sorely missed, but we know you're be there with us. How I love and miss you, girl. Love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Sarah, Kristin visited today and we shared so much. Your "flame/fire" pants are now in her possession, as well as other items I know you would want her to have. A bittersweet day for the both of us. How I miss you. How I love you. Mommy " and the seasons, they go round and round. painted ponies go up and down. we're captive on the carousel of time. we can't return, we can only look behind from where we came, and go round and round in the circle game." - Joni Mitchell

My girl, Another day with Kristin sharing all of our memories and love for you. We felt you with us. I thank you and God for putting Kristin back in my life. She truly knows how I feel - the depth of my sorrow & the joy you brought me. She never forgets me - cards, calls, mementos, books, etc. Thank you for keeping her in my life. Please visit me soon, Sarah. My sweetheart, I love you. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Love you, Mommy

This weekend was priceless. I feel so thankful for the beautfiul fall weather, perfect time together, and Sarah's presence smiling down on us. I will cherish her belongings and I feel such a sense of peace after remembering Sarah the way we did this weekend. Thank-you for everything Moneen. Thank-you Sarah-I know you loved me just as much as I loved you.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

My love, Sarah, How do you heal a broken heart? Perseverence and trust in God? Trust that you will guide me or is that too much to ask of you, now a free-spirit? I will survive but await the time we will be reunited. Meanwhile, I take comfort from Kristin, from your precious things still in this house, and your journals. Yes, Kristin and I found 5 in your camera case, but no camera. Guide me to all the people who have your baby pictures, the remainder of your journals, and items that were special to you. Some feel since you left them at their place, they now belong to them. Nooooo. I will do whatever I can legally to have all returned. Why does it have to be so hard? I need all these connections to you, sweetie. Love you, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

I love you always, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

Your ballet slippers, candle, and picture are now carefully placed on a table all of your own at my home. I put on the fire pants and your hat last night! You would have loved it. Thanks for your letter. I know you helped your mother open right up that that page. Love you sweet girl. Almost a harvest full moon.

My Nightingale, Please come to my window tonight and sing. I will open the window so that you may perch on my night stand. I want, I need to have you with me tonight. And what do you need of me, sweet Sarah? I would do anything for you. I pray that you are at peace and happy. Please let me know that you are. I love you with all my heart and soul, Mommy

"Sarah is a circus queen. She dances on a tightrope with a clown. And at final bows to a standing crowd, even the clown's frown is turned upside down." - D.O. And you did make all smile and laugh out loud! How I love and miss you, my Sarah. Moneen

Indeed, Kristin, Sarah loved you with her heart and soul for a lifetime and thereafter. Thank you for being with me through tears and laughter. I love you. Moneen

It's my birthday, Sarah, and all I want is you. Love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

"Her eye, her ear, were turning forks, burning glasses, which caught the minutest refraction or echo of a thought or feeling . . . She heard a deeper vibration, a kind of composite echo, of all the writer said, and did not say. - Willa Cather

Julio says he misses you, baby.

How many soccer games did we sit through?! Miss you sweetheart.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Sarah, Your death will not be in vain. That I promise you with my last dying breath. I know that you are free of all this sadness and selfishness of others' and my heart is full knowing you are happy. My every thought is of you. Your trio of felines say, "Meow, meow, meow!" All my love, Mommy

Sweet girl, Missing you more each day. Yes, there are moments that I laugh but usually in telling one of your hilarous stories. So, you see, Sarah, you still make me laugh. I love you so! Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

I love you, princess fairy! Mommy

As a ballet instructor to small children, Sarah was a delight to watch either on the side of the stage or on the stage leading her little ones through their dance(s). After performances, her babes would surround her off stage hugging and kissing her. They adored her and she adored them. Her beaming smile and their giggles and grins were precious to behold.

Oh, Sarah, this Fall is so beautiful, but I know your environment is paradise. Halloween is coming, one of your favorite holidays. It brings to mind when you danced the witch in "Hansel & Gretel". You were remarkable and I was so proud of you! I love you and miss you terribly. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sarah, How is my girl on this chilly Sunday? The frost will soon be on the pumpkin. You always carved/made the most creative jack-o-laterns! I'm not sure how to face each holiday without you, other than to do what you enjoyed for each. Remembering your joy creates pleasant mind-thoughts that keep me from not only utter despair, but keep you close to me. I need to feel, smell, and "see" (loosely defined) you. Your smile and laughter are always with me, along with the 'craziness' that you and Rachel created as small children. Not many would understand, but we embraced it! When not doing stand-up comedy in paradise for others, give your mom a visit, eh? I love you, my Sarah. Mommy

My girl, When the sun is about to set, I sit in your favorite spot for watching it. It's "mango, red" colors were ablaze in your eyes and you always viewed it as if it were 'the first' sunset you had ever seen. How you made all the cares of the world fade during those fifteen minutes! Sitting there now, I can reapture that joy and appreciation for what is meaningful. Your love and presence radiates in my heart. Yes, you are my daughter and for that my love is endless, but I aIso cherish all that you taught me, my girl. Love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Sweet Sarah, This foreword, in a book I am now reading, struck me: "Often people attempt to live their lives backwards: they try to have more things, or to have more money, in order to do more of what they want so that they will be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. You must first be who you really are, then, do what you need to do, in order to have what you want. - Margaret Young I think you intuitively knew this. Perhaps this was part of the struggle. In so many ways, you were/are so wise. Now you have the answers. Please help me find my way. Missing and loving you with all my heart, Mommy

Hey, woman! I'm still waiting to hear those words as you walk through the kitchen door. You've walked through another door to a place of peace, harmony, and serenity. Free of the tension and chaos of this earthly world. Knowing this comforts me, helping to lift my deep sorrow. I think of what more I could've done to help you, to lift your spirits. to make you laugh. Know you are with me always. I talk to you daily. Give my love to Grammy and Pappy. All my love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Oh, Sarah, we may get our first snow tonight. How you and I anticipated that first snowfall! You created remarkable snowmen. Remember the year the snowmen you & friends built were photographed for the Winchester Star? Driving home this afternoon thinking of snow, I thought of hot chocolate with marshmallows (your favorite) and began to cry. It's these simple thoughts that make me miss you so very much. Well, Sammy, Jersey, Mo-Mo, and I will be snuggled together. We know that you, too, will be with us. I will look outside at the falling snow and see my snow princess dancing and twirling . . . making angels in the snow. I love you forever, Mommy

Sarah, You are my special angel. Yes, I awoke to the falling snow wishing we could go out and play. I miss you so. Love, Mommy

My sweet girl, Virtual roses today for you as someone left roses on our front porch today. Are they from your friends who deeply care, but why no note? I think you sent them to me, as we both believed that flowers have a great impact on people, especially those that are sad. You and I know verdad. Mille grazie, bebe. Love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My girl, Sitting here alone without you makes me so sad. I know you don't want me to be sorrowful. The following appeared in the daily affirmations from this site: "When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight." - Kahlil Gibran I find comfort in these words, yet truthfully I have not accepted that you are no longer physically here. Please come to me so I can feel or see your presence, Sarah. I love you more than the air I breathe. Love, Mommy

Thank you, Kristin, for always remembering our Sarah . . . for remembering me. Your positive energy and thoughts lift my spirits. Love you. Moneen

Dearest Sarah, Each day gets colder and colder. Soon winter will be here, but until then we'll enjoy the sunshine . . . you are the sunshine in my heart. I hope the weather for angels is always late spring and early summer. Then again, you were/are a great snow princess! You'll always be my princess, Saraheee. Loving you with all my heart, Mommy

Sarah- I've felt your presence all around me this week and now that some events have unfolded I know why. Thanks for keeping an eye on me and dancing. I know that you are also looking after a fallen soldier up there in heaven. I love you girl.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Julio and I love you so very much, Sarah.

Sweet one, Soon it will be Thanksgiving Day. To me, there are no celebrations left without you, Sarah. We shared the same spirit regarding holidays. With our housegold primarily being vegetarian, Tom Turkey was safe from us! But the poor salmon was stuffed and served along side two of your favorites: Grammy's home-made noodles and southern garlic mashed "poh-tat-ers" as you liked to call them. Of course pumpkin pie! Wish we could go to Italy and celebrate your life. I miss you so much my heart aches. All my love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

I'm missing you beyond words, my Sarah. As soon as I figure out how to do so, I'm going to add one of your ballet videos to share with your friends & mine. Matthew and Ashlee's wedding is approaching in July. We'll miss your presence, but you will be with us. Love you, baby, Mommy

My girl, To all who were the closest to you, we knew you were celestial . . . more than from this earthly world. There was/is a mystery regarding your soul. You were not only intuitive, but also had a way of looking at life in a way that most could not. We marveled your spirit. You were/are magical. "To work magic is to weave the unseen forces into form; to soar beyond sight; to explore the unchartered dream realm of the unhidden of the hidden reality." - Starhawk Said more cogently than me. I am so fortunate to have had you in my life, not only as a daughter, but as a gifted and spiritual person. I could have learned so, so much more from you and realize I still can. You have so much to offer. I love you immensely. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sweet baby, I've had this same dream twice within 3 days. You came to me in a flowing, long white chiffon dress with both your dress and hair flowing in the air. How beautiful you were! You reached out your hand and said, "Come to me, mommy". My response was that I wanted to go to you more than ever and you reached out your hand and asked me to come with you again. This time I responded by saying I had to stay because Matthew and Julio need me. You smiled, seemingly accepting my response, and faded away. I felt so torn between two worlds, but know that I have no fear of dying as you will be waiting for me. I cannot wait to be with you again. Loving you always, Mommy

My Darling Sarah, May Bhudda's comfort, peace, and teachings lead us forward. You were/are so wise. I love you with all my life. Mommy

Another beautiful full moon has passed this week. A harvest moon at that...our favorite. I listened to wading in the velvet sea last night and remembered all the New Years we spent together. New years 2000 was special and I wish dearly that we would ring in 2012 together. Love you, sweet friend.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sorry, Sarah, the last 2 days have been hectic, but know that you've been with me every minute of every day. Last night, I dreamt that I was at a casual New Years' Eve party, standing outside a ring of people holding hands and dancing in a circle. Suddenly, you appeared before me, dressed in a dress you loved, and handed me a fragile branch with orange/red flowers. You joined the circle and held out your hand for me to join you. I did so and had the time of my life dancing with you. You always lifted me into a world of peace. I love you. Mommy

Hey girl, Julio is here and we mostly speak of you. Your level of awareness was off-the-charts, your insight, your humor, etc. He only wishes he had had more time to spend with you . . . to know you deeper. I think the two of you would have learned joyfully so much about each other. Peace, Sarah. Love you forever, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Hola Sarah, Come tu? It just hit me that the holidays are coming. Can't think about it without breaking down . . . BIG TIME. Guide me Sarah. You always enjoyed the holidays, however avarte garde they were. We were never the "typical" family, nor did we want to be. But now, without you, I don't know how to face this time. Help me baby girl! With all my love, Mommy

My sweet one, Yesterday was a day of dr's visit, running around, & a reaction to a cortizone shot delivered to my left knee. That's why I didn't communicate yesterday. Mi disapiache. I dream about you all the time - keep coming to me. I dread the holidays, but know that you would not want me to feel this way. You & I always put the tree up with you doing most of the decorating & taking the tree down. This year I just don't know that I'll have the strength to handle the holidays without you. Wish the medical professionals could put me into a self-induced coma on November 23rd & awaken me on January 4th. Yes, I know by not facing this season this year, it only makes it harder for the next year. Hold my hand, baby, and guide me through this and be by my side. Saying 'I love you' seems trivial, but my Sarah you know I do with all my heart. Love, Moneen

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Sarah, I long to hold you in my arms . . . to feel your warmth and spirit . . . to feel your vibrancy and love for life. This holiday season will be very difficult without you. Not certain how I will survive. Please be by my side - I need to feel your presence. How will I live the rest of my life without you? This is when everyone who is no experiencing nor has experienced the death of their child gets so spiritual and esoteric. "She is always with you . . ." No, it is not the same, as I will never have the pleasure of seeing you, talking with you, having you physically by my side, being at your wedding, or holding your children. I try to be more tolerant of those who truly do not have a clue of what they are speaking. I know what it is like to lose my darling girl & resent otherts telling me how I should feel. Please, please be by my side through this first holiday season without you, my girl. I love you forever, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Julio A. Rodriguez lit a candle.

Missing you!

I miss you beautiful!

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Sarah, Hope you are smiling and enjoying being my angel. I miss and love you more than imaginable. Be with me throughout the holidays. I love you. Mommy

Sweet Sarah, I know you are watching over me and do not want me to be sad. All in good time, I guess. Your friend, Dan, is sharing pictures of you with me and your Dad found the dance album you created. I can't wait to see these photos! I want to do something important in your honor. Advocate for those in prisons? Write my memoir of you and/or losing you? What do you think? I love you, my girl. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Well, my girl, yesterday was Thanksgiving. I could not face your empty chair at the table, so Julio and I went to DC. We went to the Smisthonian castle and reminisced of you . . . touching moments throughout our lives together. My love for you will never end, Sarah. I miss you so! Love, Mommy

My Sarah, I'm to be thankful even for the adversity in my life. I understand the theory and am trying to live it, although it is hard. What I am learning is to be thankful every moment throughout the day in order to divert adversity. God only allowed you on this earth for a short time - am not certain why. But what I do know is that you had an intense influence upon many people in all walks of life and in many positive ways. You taught me a lot while here on earth and even after your death, I'm still learning. My beautiful girl, I miss you. Watch over me, si? With everlasting love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Sarah, In one of my daily devotional books, I came across this quote from Helen Keller which touched me: "Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. To keep our faces toward change and behave like free spirits in the presence of fate is strength undefeatable." - H. Keller This is how you lived your life, Sarah. At times you were afraid, unsure, and worried. You were nearly always able to rise above these emotions. You were/are strong - one of the strongest women I know. I try to draw from your strength in order to keep my face toward change. You lived as a free spirit. I hope to some day regain this spirit. I miss you terribly, girl. Come to me. Love you, Mommy

Sarah, How you loved your favorite stuffed animals. Supposedly, they were/are inanimate objects, but we must remember the lesson taught in the story, The Velveteen Rabbit, about becoming real. "Once you are Real you cannot become unreal again. It lasts forever." And you, my love, are REAL to me and many others. I do not want nor will let people forget you. Stand beside me. Sing me a nightingale song. Land on my hand as a butterfly. I love you truly and dearly, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My girl, Remember the book we used to read, "It's Been a Horrible, Terrible, Rotten Day"? Well, that it has been! Put in a good word for me, okay? I love you. Mommy

Oh, Sarah, It's time for the annual Nutcracker ballet performances. Part of me would like to go, yet intuitively I know I can't. Too many sweet and precious memories there. However, I bet your spirit will be on stage dancing all your favorite parts. By far, you've been recognized as one of the best "Clara"s ever danced. At such a young age, you walked out on the stage and owned it. So confident, so agile, such emotion, so artistic. The audience marveled at your performance! How beautiful you were! People sensed and witnessed your great spirit as you dance, knowing your performance went far beyond technical talent. I'm still so proud of you, not just for your dance, musical, poetry talents, but how happy you made people feel when they were going through tough times. You were often my fortress and I was so thankful you were with me. Your presence still guides me. Thank you my precious Sarah. Please be with me on Christmas. With everlasting love for you, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sarah, I chose a yellow candle as we both felt it brought us cheer and hope. Am trying very hard to be cheerful and hopeful, pero es dificil ahora mismo. At times like this we always used to say, "It can only get better!" We/I put our troubles/worries in God's hands. Trust & faith. But you could put in a good word for me! You always made me laugh, so I wouldn't be so serious. Come to me and make me laugh again. With all my heart I love you, Mommy

Hi Sweetheart, Another day without you here. Of course, you are always in my heart and thoughts. I can still feel you in my arms . . . hear your laughter . . . see you smile. I'm having a hard time imaging life without you. Like this butterfly, my hope is that you are soaring. When I look into night's sky, I see you among the stars. I love you my shining star. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Girl, A beautiful sunny day to drive in the country . . . breathe the fresh air . . . view the Blue Ridge Mountains. The clouds looked like angels. And you were there amongst them, smiling down on me. The sunset was majestic. Thank you sweet Sarah for being with me today. I love you, I love you. Mommy

Sarah-ee-berrie, I loved calling you that as you were growing up. Have been reading about angels, as this pertains to us. I know you are my gauardian angel, without a doubt. Please allow me to gain more information, not for how to contact you, but more for how I should connect with you. How I love youi. I cannot say your name without crying. Numerous reasons. Have to let these emotions run their course before I put them on your shoulders, I love you until my last dying breathe. Love you, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Sarah, Well, I took my final Spanish II exam and scored excellent. Ya-hoo! You were my gaurdian angel, for when I wasn't certain of the answer, I asked you to help me . . . and you did! How I love you, my baby. Now help me decide what I should do for the holidays. My everlasting love for you, my baby girl, Mommy

Saraheeee, As I was inputting this site, I was reminded about when pappy left grammy by accident at the Omps gas station! I hope grammy is finally able to laugh about it. We all still laugh! You are my gaurdian angel. What would be troubles and worries dissipate when thinking of you and God. Thanks for taking care of me. I only wish I had had the power to make your life happier here on earth. As I always told you, I love you unconditionally, girl, but miss you beyond words. "With every breath I take, I keep on loving you". Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

Hi Baby Girl, Yes, I need a big hug from you and am certain many who have gone before you are supplying you joyous hugs. Give hugs to Grammy and Pappy. I miss you all terribly. Going through surface things, I found a Christmas card that you had addressed to your Dad, but never sent. I'm going to mail it next week. I think it will touch his heart . . . hearing from you this Christmas. Christmas tree or no Christmas tree? Not certain I can handle it, as you and I always got the tree and decorated it. All your beautiful ornaments collected over the years. What would make you happy, Sarah? Loving you with all my being, Mommy

Sarah . . . "here comes the sun, here comes the sun, and I say it's alright". Well there was sunshine today, but sooooo cold. I can see you in your woolen hat tied below your chin, your Timberlake coat with the furry hood, gloves from which you could expose your fingers, and the boots, with the white shoestrings from tennis shoes. And under all the gear was that remarkable smile and laugh! I remember when 'you Middletown elementary girls' built the family of snowmen that was starred in the Winchester Star. Unfortunately, you were not in the photograph as you were on your way home at our agreed upon time (such a good girl) . . . but your name was mentioned! You always took care of shoveling snow for me. Thank you, thank you! As I sorely miss you, I will miss the excitement we felt at the first Big snowfall. I love you my snow princess, Mom

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sweetheart, My mind is numb with no clear thoughts, other than I miss you terribly. Come back to me. I want to feel those soft lips kissing me 'goodnight'. I don't know how to be without you. Please kiss Matthew and your Dad, okay? Until tomorrow . . . each day brings me closer to seeing you in this afterlife. All my love, Mommy

Another full moon passes and as always I'm thinking of you. I'll never see a full moon any not think of you sweet girl. Tom and I are ready for Christmas and I just returned from a trip to Denver. You would LOVE Denver. I hope you can float on over there in heaven. I'm also wearing the opal earrings that you gave me for Christmas two years ago. Two little butterflies that have always symbolized us. I brought your picture into my office and I love having you with me all day. I plan on spending some time with your mother this holiday and will do my best to look after her during this very tough time. Love you girl. Kisses.

My Sarah, "In the night of death, hope sees a star, and listening love can hear the rustle of a wing." - Robert Ingersoll You are my star and I am listening better. Every now and then, I hear the rustling of your wings. Today I found pictures of you and Matthew (1984) sitting on Santa's lap. How sweet! I hope that you will be here with me making me smile through these holiday days that I dread. Loving and missing you more and more, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Oh my Sarah, I can't face Christmas without you. Everyone expects me to go on, enjoy, etc. - how can they possibly believe I could do this? My heart breaks. I just want to be with you, Matthew, Ashlee, & Julio. My heart aches unimaginably. Come to me . . . I need you so. Love, Mommy

My Angel . . . my Lucie in the sky, Hope you are having fun on the other side. I'm trying to have a stiff upper lip through the holidays. You have to help me, okay? "Memories" Tender little memories of some word or deed. Give us strength and courage, when we are in need. Blessed little memories help us bear the cross and soften all the bitterness of failure and of loss. Precious little memories, of little things we've done, make the very darkest day a bright and happy one." - Helen Steiner Rice Please come to visit me. I miss you so! All my love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My girl, I'm planning a candlelight vigil probably a day or two after Christmas for you. You will never be forgotten, Sarah. Will contact your friends and our family to attend.. Christmas shopped for Matthew and Ashlee today. Did pretty good . . . didn't fall to the floor in the mall and cry my eyes out! And I bought an Angel ornament for you. Your Dad gave me today the photo album of your ballet pictures. You're so beautiful! And the witch!!!! You dazzled people when you danced the witch in Hansel & Gretel. You were/are the best! I was/am so proud of you. Loving you with all my heart, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

Precious Sarah, December 23rd, we gathered together here at the house for your candlelight vigil - Kristin, Tom, Rachel, Turtle, and me. We sat in your room sharing memories, laughing, and looking at those items which were significant to you. Each person took home a t-shirt or article of clothing that they remembered that you loved. Later, we all went outside, lit candles, toasted you, sang your favorites, read poetry, and spoke from our hearts about our undying love for you, how we miss you, but know you are with us and smiling upon us. Joy surrounded us . . . we knew you were there. Your dance amongst the stars lit our hearts and minds. I hope you enjoyed this special remembrance of you. We have agreed to do so throughout the years. My darling girl, I love you 'until snowmen sleep in the sea or even longer if I may'. Mommy

MERRY CHRISTMAS, My Sarah!!! Heaven must be a delightful place for you today. Such a celebration! You so filled me, that I smiled, laughed, and loved all through the day. Thank you for being with me as I feared I would far apart. I felt your hand in mine with that reassuring squeeze. My angel, this first Christmas without you has truly taught me the real meaning of Christmas. The hoopla and mayhem mean nothing. It's our true love that binds us together and provides us the courage to look and move forward when we think we cannot. I will now sit and relax with you, my angel, sitting on my shoulder. With my everlasting love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Girl, I am so, so sad that i fear I may not be able to write extensively. You know all that happens in my life. Give me guidance, sweetheart. Be by my side. I love you, Sarah. Mommy

Sarah- It was so wonderful to celebrate your life last week. I must admit I've been quite sad since we did this. I hate that you cannot participate and be with all those that love you. I hate that I cannot ever call you again or enjoy some girls time with you. You changed my life. I was not popular and didn't have many friends. You took the time to befriend me, encoaurged me, and helped mold me into who I am today. I know you are proud of me. Although it is months later I feel extremely angry that you will never get in my vehicle again and change the CD 100 times. You were my best friend and you can never replace the friends of your youth- i'll never have anyone like you again. Everyone knows that friendships change with age but I can't say that they improve because life just gets busy and you do things out of necessity, not always love. I'm glad to spend time with your other friends because I realize that you were someone we all wanted for ourselves. Most of us were jealous when you had a serious boyfriend or a new friend. You were the kind of person that you just wanted to yourself. Maybe that is a curse of a blessing but we all loved you and it speaks to the kind of friend and love you offered. I know you were with us too! See you soul sister. love you.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Hey sweet girl, Found this quote yesterday from one of our favorite authors. "Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage." - Anais Nin Although I do not feel courageous, it has taken courage to get up every day and proceed through the fog. You fought your demons with courage. Many times now I feel as you did when at your lowest point. How I wish I could hold you in my arms and make all your sufferings go away. Please let me know that you no longer suffer and are laughing and dancing. I love you forever, Mommy

So beautiful, Kristin. I, too, feel that I have entered the angry stage of grief. My anger is not so much directed to Sarah, but to all the people who called themselves her friends and yet destroyed her. I want justice for Sarah. My heart breaks. Love you, Moneen

My Precious Sarah, We are about to embark on a new year - cannot fathom without you. Tonight at midnight I will be gazing at the silvery moon and toasting you, your life, your wisdom, and your courage. Just re-read "The Invitation". Every line speaks of you. How fortunate I am to have loved /love you and to have felt the depth of yours. I will love you for ever, Mommy

HAPPY NEW YEAR, sweet Sarah! This was always one of your favorite holidays where you could "party down" & dance from your soul. Everyday in Heaven is probably like New Years' Eve/Day! Am certain you danced the polka with Grammy & Pappy! This new year my goals are to get justice for your death and to always keep you in my heart and soul but no longer bind you to this earth, as a result of my grief. I want to do something that honors you & am thinking about options. What would you prefer? Missing you, as always, but looking forward to being with you again. Love always, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My girl, Can hear you saying to me, "Hey woman!" Always made me laugh when you were so happy. Watched a movie where the main character, a writer, visited Paris and went back in time to the era of F. Scott Fitzgerald, Hemingway, Picasso, Anais Nin, etc. Your genius would have been/is so appreciated by them and now they are in your presence. Hope you are enjoying contemplation, ideas, thoughts in their circle. I know you are making them laugh, especially Hemingway as he so needed to laugh. Let them know their great works are on my shelves along with yours. How I adore you. During the rough times of your illness, it may have not seemed so, but even then we always relayed how much we loved each other. You always thanked me for being the one person always there for you. And now you are here for me and I thank you. Loving you heart and soul, Mommy

My Sarah, A snow blizzard this morning! Met with the deputy district attorney today re: the investigation of your murder/death. I will see the perpretrator prosecuted until my last dying breath. Know that your mother will avenge your death - not to worry, baby. Justice will be done. With all my heart I love you, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sweetheart, Oh, it's been a looooong 2 days at work. Your mother needs to retire! Fortunately the temperature has increased, but realize you must be thinking that information is no longer relevant to you! I hope Heaven is like Bali! So much we should have/could have done together. When we're rejoined, we fly all over the place! Can't wait! Loving you soooo much, Mommy

Love you, my girl. I'm braindead and cannot think of a single inspirational thing to say. Just know how much I love you, now & forever. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My beautiful Sarah, Your dolphins dance upon the water, then under, then carry you up out of the sea. I see them everyday and I see you. Gentle, kind, and smiling . . . in love with the world . . . in love with the sea. Come to me, as you have not visited for awhile. I long to see you, smell you, kiss you. Be at peace, my girl. Love, Mommy

Sarah, You did come to me! This morning I heard the "ghost", that you always told us about all through your childhood, walking around upstairs in your room. I'm so happy to be close to you. Julio sends his love to you. Loving you with all my heart and soul, Mommy

January Full Moon is tonight. See you in the stars sweet friend. Love you.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Baby girl, I'm still ill, sweetheart, but want you to feel the love I have for you and how you are still number one regardless of what is happening in my life. Kisses, my girl. Love you forever, Mommy

Sweetheart, Sorry for my absence. Have been having horrible nightmares. The theme is always about losing you and not being able to find you. Last night I dreamt that you were a little girl and went outside to play in the snow with your friends..I kept an eye on all of you from time to time. When it was time to come in, you were gone! I looked everywhere, called for you, was hysterical. No one would help me find you. I love you forever, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Girl, Last night you came to me in my dream. You just walked through the door with that catchy smile on your face and gave me the biggest hug - the happiest I've ever been. When I awoke, I knew it was a dream, but still felt your presence. How I love you. Be happy, my Saraheee. Loving you always, Mommy

Sweet Sarah, I would try to explain why I've been so silent, but you already know. Every time I pull up your tribute wall, I gasp when I see your beautiful face. Still I cannot believe you are gone. I don't believe that I ever will. I want you to be with me . . . I want to be with you, my baby girl. How will I ever survive without you? I can only hope and pray you are at peace. I love you, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Hey Girl, Wish you were here to make your favorite birthday meal, shrimp confetti quesedilla. Yours was the best! I must say that ours was one family, whose members were all good cooks. How you would've loved the food in Italy, especially the pastries and gelato. Guess over my years of being there, I ate enough for both of us! So much we still had left to do together. Of course, you'll be with me where ever I go,but it will never be the same. Missing all those small yet precious moments we shared and those to come. Love you always, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sweet Sarah, Another icy, frigid day. So bleak. The cats and I snuggle in and keep warm. Loving for forever, Mommy

My Sarah, Where has this week gone that I have not written in 4 days? being back to work is a comfort, yet also frazzles me. Definetly ready to retire. How I wish we could go traveling together. How I wish I had just one more alive minute with you. Of course, these are my earthlynd selfish desires. I love you are so much, girl. Kisses, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

Love you sweet Sarah. Just got back from New Orleans and you and I would have terrorized that city together :)

My Sweet Sarah, Oh, how I could use a hug and then some from you. I sit in the dark and wish for your light to feel the room. How I wish I could've made your life whole and happy. Know that I love you with all my heart. I'd give my life to have you back, baby. With all my love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Oh, my Sarah . . . how do I live without you? I cannot accept that you will not be physically present in my life always. You were supposed to take care of me! My heart is broken for forever. Why can you not come back to me? You were not suppose to die. Life held so much for you. My pain is so deep and so raw. Come back to me, my baby. I can't live without you. I do not want to live without you. Loving you with all my heart and soul, Mommy

Oh, Sarah . . . I can't stand life without you. Everytime I pull up your tribute wall, I gasp and cry when your picture appears. I will not accept that you are gone from me. Never. Talk to me. Help me move forward. I love you with all my heart and soul. Mommy

Will continue to hold you in my heart, Moneen. I can not begin to imagine what this journey is like for you....bless your heart.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, MoneenC. Christovich lit a candle.

My Angel, Each day I miss you more than the day before. Smile down upon me and fill me with your warmth and sweet spirit. Love you always, girl. Mommy

Mary Anne, So good to hear from you. Thank you for your support and kind words. I force myself to put one foot in front of the other. Let's plan to get together soon. Moneen

Sweet friend tomorrow is the full moon for February. I will bask in its beauty and know that you will be with me. I know you are giving me strength and I feel your presence. I love you forever. Always yours

Sweet Sarah, This is what I see when I look at you . . . I see a remarkable woman with a kind and caring heart, who is beautiful in every sense of the word . . . When I look at you . . I see a smile that lights up the room and laughter that is truly contagious. I see strength and wisdom beyond anything I have ever known. I see love - pure and true compassion and thoughtfulness. I see a woman who walks through this world with gentleness and grace. I admire you for all you are and for all that you do. You are everything wonderful in this world and if I had just one wish it would be that you could see what I see when I look at you. - Elle Mastro

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Girl, How beautiful you are in so many ways. I should be accepting that I'll never see you in this earthly way again, but as of now, I cannot. I yearn for you and our closeness. Thinking that you are now celestial gives me a bit of comfort. I'm trying to keep up with your friends, those that you were c.ose to . . . I guess they bring you closer to me. Tonight the stars are gorgeous. As i looked at them, I felt you. How I love you. Sometimes I would prefer to be with you, but I know that is not what you would want. Watch over me, sweet girl. Send your love to me. With all my love, Mommy

Happy Valentines Day sweet, beautiful friend. The last time I saw you it was Valentines Day weekend. We made some good memories and played in the snow back when winter was cold! I can't begin to describe the void in my life without you. I'll do my best to fill it with love and positive energy. I had your beautiful Italy dress dry cleaned this week...your makeup from the last time you wore it was still present. I'm all booked for Sorrento and Roma and I'm going to wear your dress and honor your spirit, Sarah becuase that it all anyone who truly loved you can do. I'm also looking to creating a scholarship/tribute in your honor with Bethany Hall. I won't let your name be forgotten. Love you and miss you.

My Sweet Sarah, I cannot believe I have not written for days. My heart hurts terribly. I'm trying to have the courage to go on each day. I miss you so much. "As long as I can I will look at this world for the both of us. As long as I can I will laugh with the birds, I will sing with the flowers, I will pray to the stars, for both of us." -Sascha I love you forever. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY, SWEET SARAH! I love you so very much! Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Oh, Sarah, my Sarah - how do I go on without you? My heart aches terribly. Yes, I remember those wonderful memories, but they don't bring you back to me. You suffered here on earth so much. I trust God is holding you in His arms and you have that incredible smile on your face. I love you forever. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

My baby girl, It's not getting any easier to live without you. I want to believe it will, but so far . . . no. Yes, I remember all our funny and precious memories, but they do not bring you back to me. I guess, I have not accepted your death. I think, "If I go to CA, I may find you there alive." I can't go on without you. I'm fractured. Nothing is more important than finding you. I just want you back, my girl. Love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Baby Girl, My apologies for the decrease in my writing. I know that you are not grounded to these earthly tangibles. It is my own guilt . . . . that you may feel I have forgotten you. From high in the heavens, I know you think I am silly as I talk to you every moment of every day. Tonight I looked through the ballet photo album you created. My heart soared, yet settled into reality. I will never hold you again, never see you dance, never dance with you as we always did, never laugh with you, never see you cooking in the kitchen, nurturing your cats. I don't know how to go on without you, yet I know, thankfully, that you are in a better place than me. I love you forever, Mommy

Good Morning Baby Girl The sun is shining to brightly. Hopefully spring and summer will be here soon. I need the sunshine, as you were mine. Smile on me today and let me feel your warmth. Love, Mommy

Hey Beautiful. The March full moon is tonigiht. We always disliked the month of March but I'm going to make this a positive month. I remember our phone conversations last March. It just does not feel that long ago. I hate that I can't call you now. Can't you work on that phone in heaven? I'm going to get some fresh flowers tonight and gaze at the moon. Come visit me in spirit. I love you forever.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

My Sweet Sarah, Sorry, once again for my silence, but only on this tribute wall,as I think of and feel you every moment of each day. Have been in Richmond, VA most of last week at a conference. There are so many places that I wanted to share with you & Richmond is one. Currently, my focus has been, but especially now, keeping "the detective" to stay active on your case. Whatever it takes to shake their boots and keep them/him diligently investigating, I will do. Maybe I'll end up like the father who marched in front of the Winchester courthouse for years, proclaiming his son's innocence - day by day wearing that sandwich box sign. Your murderer will not escape charges. I'll spend my last dying breath ensuring this. And if you, XXXX, are reading this, know your time is limited - you may as well turn yourself in. Meanwhile, I want to believe that you are happy and at peace. Are you are there singing with Whitney? She needs your comfort and warmth. How I miss you, my girl. I love you forever & ever. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Baby girl, Please lead us to the person who killed you. You may have thought life was unobtainable for you, but I know that you didn't want to die. I know who did, as well as the police. Give him up Sarah. He is not God and had no right to ask as such when he left you to die. I believe, had you had the opportunity to live, you would have chosen life. You wanted life. Speak to us now of the person who stole your life, We all know who it is - just confirm our speculations. Being rich does not make murder of someone his parents' hated excusable. Remember, rich daddy threatened to slit you throat. They're all going down - if it takes my last dying breath. Justice will be served, I promise you that, my Sarah. I can't live until he/they are persecuted. I need you. I need your help. I love you more than words can convey. Mostly, I want you to be at peace. All my love, Mommy

My Sarah, I want to 'come fly away' with you. Spring has arrived. The daffodils are blooming, as well as the hyacinths. If you were bodily here, I know we'd be dancing barefoot in the grass! How I miss you. How I want to hold you. I will love you forever and can't wait to be with you again. Love you, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Girl, A yellow candle for a sunny day and your sunny warm smile. Sarah, you brought sunshine into people's otherwise bleak lives. You gave to those when most people would have turned them away. One of the biggest reasons you are sitting in God's garden, listening to the waterfalls and watching the butterflies flit amongst the flowers. How I wish I were with you. We all miss you and wish you were still here. All my love, Mommy

I'm missing you so very much today. Send your family and me some sunny rays of light from heaven.

Oh Sarah, The flood-gate of tears let loose last night. I bottle my grief as people grow tired of my grief or just simply don't know what to say anymore. What they don't understand is they need say nothing - just listen. So I hold it close to myself. However, the mind, body, & spirit know what I need to survive. Eventually, my body, mind, spirit just have to release. It keeps me sane. I don't know that I will ever accept not seeing you again until I die. I ache for you every day. Every day. I will never be the same. I love you with all my heart & soul. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sarah, What a rainy day. Not a mood lifter, Hope you have southern California weather in Heaven. But if you were here, You'd be dancing between the raindrops. How I need you on days like this. Come dance with me, girl! I love you throughout all eternity. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

As Stevie Nicks sang, I miss you. Well I miss you now I have so many questions About love and about pain About strained relationships About fame as only he could explain it to me Seems like yesterday I think about how much I Wish that you were here with me now The invisible girl that was my name She walks in and walks out And I'm sorry now I'm sorry now. I wish I could take away all the pain he caused you, erase all the past. I wish I had been there to protect you. But most-of-all, I wish I were with you. Love you forever, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

I love you, Sarah. Mommy

Happy April sweet friend. I know how much we always looked forward to the end of March. This one wasn't any better but I'm sure you had a perfect month in heaven. Full Moon this Thursday. Should be a beautiful month. I love you.

My Girl, Easter came and went. I wanted to make our usual Easter basket, but just couldn't do it without you. I know God and Bhudda are holding each of your hands and that you are all laughing happily. I need to be mentally where you are. I love you more than life itself. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

I just spent about 10 minutes writing in this space & somehow it got erased - grrrr! Yet, without my even writing, I know that you know what's in my heart and soul. I will love you forever, girl. Mommy

Sarah, Sarah. I won't believe you are physically gone from this world. I so want to hold you and feel your arms around me. I can't comprehend you not being at Matthew & Ashlee's wedding. I am losing my mind. Love you with all my heart, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

Oh, Sarah . . . Hugh has put your poetry to music with a singer. I can't wait to hear the CD. This is someone that never met yoiu, but feells you completely understands. The CD made from your poem will be out soon for all to hear. How I miss you, my sweet girl. Love forever, Mommy

Sweet Sarah, Sorry for my absence but, I know, you know medically what's going on with me. I'm not afraid to die, as I will be with you. Your guidance is needed, Sarah. I miss you so. Love Mom

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Hola, my baby girl. Each day I look at various pictures of you and your smile makes me smile. I cannot believe it will soon be a year since your death. My emotions remain raw. Perhaps I will be with you soon. Love you, girl.

I love you, Sarah. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My girl, Almost a year and I still cannot believe that you are not on this earth. I'm selfish, I want you with me, but I do not want you suffering. When I join you, I will no longer suffer. Matthew graduates from GMU tomorrow with high honors. I know you'll be there for him. Help us find our way, sweet Sarah. Love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

My sweet Sarah, It's memorial day weekend. You always brought energy and excitement to every holiday. I used to live the holidays through you. So, honor your pappy and cousin Billy up there in Heaven and let them know they are not forgotten, as you will never be. I continue to miss you incredibly each and every day. I love you so much. Mommy

I love you with all my heart, my Sarah. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Oh, Sarah, the magnificient thunderstorms of late. We loved experiencing them. The clash, the boom, the strike of light, the dancing between the raindrops. What I wouldn't I do for these moments again. I love you madly. Mommy

The roses are blooming, Sarah, so sweet to smell. Mr. Whiskers' roses have turned from the Audrey Hepburn pink to red! Wish we could adventure together, but whatever I see, I see through mine and yours. Love you forever. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sarah, today I thought of all the hilarious moments we shared. Remember what fun we had having our portraits made (the chnages of clothes, hair/make-up, posing, etc)? I spent much, much more than budgeted. While driving home I asked you how I was going justify this expense and you said, "Mom just like Desi always said to Lucie, 'You got lots of '-splainin' to do!" No matter what situation(s) I and your friends worried about, you were always light-hearted and made us laugh. I love(ed) this quality in you. How I love & miss you, girl. Mommy

My angel, Now that you are with him, please give Pappy a big hug and kiss for me. Hope he's still telling everyone jokes! Like you, he loved to make others laugh. Kisses to Grammy, too. With all my love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

"China tea, the scent of hyacinths, wood fires, and bowls of violets - that is my mental picture of an agreeable afternoon with you." - Constance Spry The anniversary of your death approaches and my heart is so heavy. I think that if I start volunteering at a program that serves those with your illness, even if I can only save one life, it will help me heal. Well, I'm hoping so, as currently I am paralyzed with grief. My girl, my girl, how did you slip away from me off this earth. There is some comfort knowing that you are no longer suffering and at peace, and I know you are with me always. Send lightning bolts to my brain to enlighten me, Sarah. I love you eternally. Mommy

Ciao my sweet Sarah, What a beautiful, sunny day. I can feel your warmth and positive energy fill me. I cannot wait to see you again, to hear your laughter, to feel your embrace, to dance with you, and to talk "the crazyness"! I love you forever. Mommy

My Sarah, We could have been sailors, even pirates (aaargh) sailing the high seas together ! You and I have always been dreamers and shall always be. Dreams mean hope, and hope means faith. I have faith that we will be together again. Life is a mixture of mysteries and secrets. You now know all the answers and I am left stumbling. I know there is a reason we on earth don't have the answers here. I can't wait to join you and discover. I love you with all my heart. Moneen

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My Sarah, My heart breaks as it has now been one year since your death, but you have enlightened me, strengthened my soul, have made me a ship's mast, and taught me to give with no expectation of return. Growth that I would not have expected a year ago. When . . . the wind blows the leaves on trees, fireflies flitter and dance in the night, a dragonfly sits by my teacup, stray cats find their way to our home, a butterfly gently lands on my arm, your lips softly kiss my cheek . . . I know that you are with me. My heart fills with love and joy and I know that we are both smiling. Golden Fields of Butterflies "To lie in a golden field and gaze upon a hundred butterflies floating in the summer sunshine is by no means a waste of time." My girl, thank you for teaching me this lesson. My love is eternal. Mommy

Sarah, It has been awhile since I wrote but I have thought of you every day. I can't beleive that a year has passed since you left this world. Life just isn't the same without you in it. I found a passage that reminds me of our friendship and I wanted to share it with you. "They are love, those rare, blinding early friendships. Not everyone has them, and almost no one gets more than one. The other, the later ones, are not the same. These first grow in a soil found only in the country of the young, and are possible only there because their medium is unbroken time and proximity and discovery, and later there is not enough of these for the total, ongoing immersions that these friendships are. It charmed us, soothed us, fed us, consumed us. We discovered in each other and ourselves worlds, galaxies, a universe." I miss all our magic. I love you forever. Kristin

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

Beautiful, Kristin. Love you. Moneen

Sarah, I'm lost without you. Yes, you are always in my heart, but I miss our conversations, our hilarious moments, your wit, and poetry. Some days I am fine and others I am close to tears or crying all day. This tribute wall will soon expire, so I am writing a book. I love you always. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sarah, Let's go to Maine or perhaps l'italia. Wherever I go, uou will always go with me. I love you, my Sarah. Mommy

Girl, Wish you were here to talk to, get your insight, etc. I still talk to you throughout the day. Will you ask God to give me a sign as to what I'm going to do with the rest of my life?! Missing and loving you more and more each day. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Oh, Sarah, you are everywhere . . . the wind that rustles the leaves on trees, fireflies dancing and glittering in the night, placing wildflowers in Mason jars, in my heart. Listening to your laughter still makes me smile. I am proud of you as you should be proud of yourself. Loving you always, Mommy

My girl, Yes, the heart shows how much I love you! This morning I've had Cat Stevens songs singing in my brain. Remember all those nights we sang his songs loudly coming home from ballet? What fun! "Morning has broken" has been with me all day. That was/is your entry into heaven, I believe. I want to believe in my heart that you are happy and serene now, but I will forever long to be with you. Your "Hard Headed Woman" loves you always, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Hey girl, We're traveling to Julio's for a couple days. He misses you & is always asking me to say, as you did in the Hansel & Gretel ballet playing the witch: Child: How did your teeth get so black? You: Because I ate too much caaaandy! You were phenomenal in that role. Miss you always. Love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, lit a candle.

She was always amazing in her plays ") she would teachy the parys and we would act them out together, we had the best child hood together!! So much imagination !!!

I loooove you sista, i saw the lizard king the other day, it reminded me of all the sketches you used to make draw of ol'jim and "the doors" album cover's ;) muuuaah

My Girl, Have really been missing you . . . more than usual. You are always with me, but I miss having that "I'm standing right next to you" feeling. The other night Julio told me that in my sleep I asked him if you were home yet. Yes, you're at home in Heaven, Nirvanna, etc., but I want you back with me. I know it's selfish and I certainly don't want you to suffer, but I miss you sooo much. Know I'll always love you . . . "no matter what" as we used to say. Mommy

Love you, Rachel. Let's get together soon. Moneen

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sweet Sarah, How you loved Emily Dickenson, so here's a poem for you: New feet within my garden go, New fingers stir the sod; A troubadour upon the elm Betrays the solitude. New children play upon the green, New weary sleep below; And still the pensive spring returns, And still the punctual snow!" I love you my girl, Mommy

My Sarah, Every day & night I pray that God will give you back to me. Knowing that this will not happen, then I cry and pray that you are serene, at peace, happy, dancing, and watching over me. I will never, ever accept that you are no longer with me. Love you forever, Moneen

Your 30th Birthday is all most upon us. How I wish that you were here so that we could be planning a party. I feel very sad that your life ended before we could celebrate 3 decades on this planet together. My solace is that I know you do not suffer the same pain that those of us on earth experience. I know that you are not lonely, sad, and that you never cry. I know that you are not in pain and that you are beautiful and full of joy. You made so many birthdays very speical for me and I wish that I could make this one special for you. There is a full moon on your birthday this year. You and Jerry are up in heaven dancing, that I know for sure. Love you sweet friend.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, moneen christovich lit a candle.

Sarah girl, In 2 days it will be your 30th birthday. we will celebrate with your favorite cheese cake, candles, a ballon with a message, readings, and prayers. i know u will smile upon us. missing you terribly and loving you even more, mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, lit a candle.

I light this candle for you Sarah in memory of you!....Your 30th birthday is July 2nd and will be sadly missed...We had Great times and I will MISS you always......Till we see each other again rest in peace!..>We <3 you Dearly!

Happy 30th Birthday Beautiful Woman. I love you so much. Last night the moon was almost full and there was a thrilling thunderstorm. This morning I watched the sunrise and the sky was so beautiful. Tonight a full moon in honor of you and your 30th. Your Leo spirit is all around. I will look at the moon tonight and I will toast to you in your favorite wine glass. I love you dearly Sarah. I so wish you were here. Those of us who truly loved you, knew you, and were only positive influences in your life will never be the same without your presence. So dance with Jerry to sugar magnolia today sweet, beautiful friend.

My Sarah, "You are the sunshine of my life . . . " especially on another dreary, rainy day. Your smile still lights up a room and people's lives. Can still hear hear your unique laugh. You haven't come to visit me for awhile. Please come my beautiful nightingale. I'll be waiting. Love you, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

I love you, Sarah. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin lit a candle.

My precious girl, HAPPY 30th BIRTHDAY!!! Where did all these years go? I remember the day you were born, your first cry, as well as your first smile. From the first day of your life, you were always a gentle soul and a joy to experience. How I miss you. Hope you and grammy & pappy are celebrating - dancing on clouds. Tonight I will send to you balloons with a card. I will light candles and read Elizabeth Barrett Browning poems to you. I will hold you in my arms. And I hope you will be smiling. With all my heart and soul, I love you. Mommy

For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed. When you part from your friend, you grieve not. For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain. And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit. And let your best be for your friend. If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also. For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill? Seek him always with hours to live. For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness. And the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures. For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed. Kahlil Gibran

How beautiful, Kristin. I haven't read that passage for 20 years. How Sarah loved you & always will. Love from your "other" mom.

When I see butterflies, Sarah, I always think of you. You are as beautiful, spiritual, adventurous, and gentle as a butterfly. Sometimes I feel that the butterfly is you, flittering among the flowers. Remember how we used to hand pick flowers from Richard's? Such happy times. "For better or worse, in sickness & in health" . . . I pledge my everlasting love for you. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sweet Sarah, Have been having many heart-to-heart conversations lately with you, as you know. I know you would want me to keep moving forward and not suffer regarding the loss of you. Not sure that is possible, but I want you to know that I know you are with me always. You will always, always be in my heart and soul. Life just is not the same without you, girl. All of my love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

Sweetie, Wish we could sail away together around the world - see all its wonders. Perhaps you've now seem them all. I miss you, my girl and love you forever. Kisses. Mommy

My beautiful girl, The seasons come and they go, just like each day. Often when I awake, I dread each waking moment, counting the time until I sleep again - my relief from my aching heart. Thinking of the last months of your life, I so wish they were days of happiness. I'll never forgive myself for not saving you. Surely there was something more I could have done. This earth was not ready for your genius, beauty, talent, wit, genuiness, and humor. I miss you terribly, Sarah. Love, Moneen

Hey my lovely Sarah girl , I miss ya sooo much , I'm in California I wish you were here with me !! I feel u with me in other ways, I know you see me and smile and laugh with me, we have little inside jokes, lol ppl around me don't get it when I'm laughing with out them lol but you get it !! ;) <3 peace pot n pizza grease sista love ur Raybabe

Muuuaah:-* Kristen , infectious laugh is sooo rite !!! <3

Miss you, Rachel. Love, Moneen

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneenj C. Christovich lit a candle.

Saraheee, A green candle for the green grass, in which you danced and twirled. You and the fireflies. I miss dancing with you when I come home from work. You have a way of making people smile and appreciate life. Can't wait to see you again. Keep walking beside me, my girl. I need you. Send me a rainbow! Love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kris8691824 lit a candle.

I miss you today Sarah. I obviosuly am absent minded today. Kristin P

You are my special angel, Sarah, watching over me. Some hard decisions to make - keep or sell this house? What do you think? Wish we were drinking coffee together and having heart-to-heart conversation this morning. Miss your scrambled eggs and blueberry pancakes! Miss YOU. All my love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Hi Sweetie, Have been listening to our favorite Cat Stevens' songs the last few days. "Oh very young, what will you leave us this time? you're only on this earth for a short time." Come back to me, Sarah. I miss you so much. Love, Mommy

Hey girl, What's up? Wish you could tell me what you are doing. Am guessing that there is no concept of time in your world. Please let me know that you are happy. Let me hear you laugh. Love you, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

Sweet Sarah, Just returned from Centreville. Got to see a lot of Matthew & his new apartment. He has your picture framed in the inlaid wooden frame I brought back from l'Italia. He misses you and wants you near him whever he goes. We all miss you and your energy, girl. Love you forever. Moneen

Sweet Sarah, The roses on Mr. Whiskers burial site in our yard were beautiful this year! Roses mean ballet performances. Miss seeing you dance. Please let me know that you are free of earthly concerns and are happy. I want happiness and peace for you, my girl. Love you with all my heart. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

I miss you Sarah girl! I wish I could spend a night on the town with you. I'm in dire need of some quality girl time. Love you very much and think of you always.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

My sweet Sarah, I am so sleepy today. Have been having a deam about you nearly every night! They are so real that I can feel your body in my arms. Feel your breath on my face. I miss you so much! Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

Full Moon this Saturday night love. I'll be looking at the sky and thinking of you.

Sarah, I'll be the MC at Yoga Jam in Floyd over Labor Day weekend. You would love the bands that I get to introduce. I'm also leading laughing yoga. Preparing for this event has me thinking about your wonderful, infectious laugh.

Kristin, Sounds like fun. Wish I could be there. Love you. Moneen

My baby-girl, Yes, there was a magnificient full moon last night. Something flittered by it. My first thought was of you as Tinkerbell, adding your special touch. I continue to dream about you nearly every night. I need to keep a journal on my bedstand & write them down. They feel as if you are helping me make the major, life-long decisions I need to make. Jersey, Sammie, and Momo send their kitty love! They miss you, but not as much as me. All my love to you, Sarah, Mommy

October again! A month a month loved by us! I have such fun memories of us in the Fall. Loving you sweet friend. Momma Moneen- we need another Sperryville date!

Oh, Sarah, October userd to be the happiest month for us. Nature's beauty and so many birthdays! The October moon . . . Halloween! I try, but I just can't celebrate anymore. No inviting pumpkins and chrysanthemums, saying "Come here . . . we have lots of caaaandie." He-ha-ha-ha-ha! I try to feel joy, but can't. All I want is to have you with me. That's al I want. What do you want, sweet one? Show me the way. All my love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin lit a candle.

My sweet girl, As a little girl, you loved helping to rake the leaves and then jumping into the heap! So many memories. Halloween! Your favorite holiday. You were an amazing witch in your dance of "Hansel & Gretel". How I miss your witch's cackling laugh! Saying I miss you is an understatement. My heart still aches terribly. You'll be loved and remembered forever, Sarah. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

My Sweet Sarah, My heart is full of love for you, my soul aches for you. Will I ever see sunshine again? I know, I'm supposed to be poised and noble, but I'd rather be real. I'll never get over losing you. Come back to me, baby. Come back to me. Love you forever, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Mommy lit a candle.

My girl, It's a dark, gloomy, rainy day. I know if you were here you'd be dancing between the raindrops. Know how much I love and miss you. Mommy

Full Moon & Halloween...know that I miss you more than words can ever say. Love you Sarah-beara

Happy Halloween Dear Sarah! The bright full moon was shining this morning as the storm clouds were breaking up in the sky. I have so many wonderful memories of us at Halloween. I love you and I miss you.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN, SARAH!!! How you loved Halloween! Can still hear you say in that cackling voice & green face as to why your teeth were rotted, "Because I ate too much caaaandy!" Hope you are having your favorite pezz. Love you forever. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Mommy lit a candle.

My Sweetheart, It never fails . . . when I pull up your tribute wall and see your picture, I gasp. Perhaps someday I'll have a warm smile, but for now I gasp in disbelief that you are not with me. Yes, I have such wonderful memories which make me smile, even laugh, but I don't have you. This ache is for the remainder of my life . . . for as long as we are not together. I ache. With all my love, Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin lit a candle.

My girl, I miss you, miss you, miss you. I never knew a person could ache like this. I can't live without you, Sarah. Please come back to me or ask God to take me. I love you. Mommy

You are always on my mind sweet friend. Happy Thanksgiving to you even though we never really loved turkey!

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Mommy lit a candle.

Yesterday was hard - for what am I thankful? I thank God that at least I had 28 years with you . . . for all the precious memories. Sarah, I'm grateful that you no longer suffer emotionally and physically, although I will never accept that you are gone from this earth. Thankful that God, Bhudda, or whatever higher being embraces you and that you smile and laugh. Nothing is the same without you. I miss you terribly. I love you with all my being. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Angie Rhodes lit a candle.

You are missed, by your "old friend." You always had a beautiful smile. I think of you often :)

How's my angel? Watch over me as I prepare to pack & move. It will be sad to leave this house, yet I know that you would want me to move on. You are always with me wherever I go. Christmas is not merry without you. You were the tree decorator.. Can't celebrate without you, my girl. Loving you to the end of time. Mommy

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin lit a candle.

The Touch of the Master's Hand 'Twas battered and scarred, And the auctioneer thought it hardly worth his while To waste his time on the old violin, but he held it up with a smile. "What am I bid, good people", he cried, "Who starts the bidding for me?" "One dollar, one dollar, Do I hear two?" "Two dollars, who makes it three?" "Three dollars once, three dollars twice, going for three," But, No, From the room far back a gray bearded man Came forward and picked up the bow, Then wiping the dust from the old violin And tightening up the strings, He played a melody, pure and sweet As sweet as the angel sings. The music ceased and the auctioneer With a voice that was quiet and low, Said "What now am I bid for this old violin?" As he held it aloft with its' bow. "One thousand, one thousand, Do I hear two?" "Two thousand, Who makes it three?" "Three thousand once, three thousand twice, Going and gone", said he. The audience cheered, But some of them cried, "We just don't understand." "What changed its' worth?" Swift came the reply. "The Touch of the Masters Hand." And many a man with life out of tune All battered with bourbon and gin Is auctioned cheap to a thoughtless crowd Much like that old violin A mess of pottage, a glass of wine, A game and he travels on. He is going once, he is going twice, He is going and almost gone. But the Master comes, And the foolish crowd never can quite understand, The worth of a soul and the change that is wrought By the Touch of the Masters' Hand. Myra Brooks Welch

How truly beautiful, Kristin. I love you. Mom

Christmas Eve, Sarah. I hear the music and dance from above. You could organize a party! Hoping that you are very happy wherever you are. Know how much I miss and love you. Mommy

Beautiful Sarah 2006

Dearest Sarah, Tonight is the last full moon of 2012. I can only say that I'm very glad the year will be over. This has not been an easy year and I'm ready to start 2013. We made some good New Years memories especially in 2000. Hard to believe that was 13 years ago and how different out lives turned out. I'll listen to "Wading in the Velvet Sea" since that was always our New Years song. "You won't find moments in a box and someone else will set your clocks. I took a moment from my day; wrapped it up in things you say and mailed it off to you." Love you sweet friend. Happy New Year.

Oh, Angie, this is one of my favorite pictures of Sarah! Your daughter has grown up. I don't know if you have told her about Sarah's death, but may she always have fond memories of Sarah. How did this happen? Let's get together soon. I'll be moving 1/18/13 to Leesburg/Aldie = a cottage in the woods. I would love to see you & your family. Love you, Moneen

My Sweet Kristin, You are always there when I am not. Mille grazie! How I wish I could walk upstairs & see you & Sarah chillin'. Miss you. Love your 2nd Mom, Moneen

My Girl, The roses are for my 'tiny dancer'. You always received them following a performance. I know I should've wished you a Happy New Year, yet I also know you are now free of these worldly events. My hope is that you are the happiest ever! Just know this . . . " As long as I can I will look at this world for the both of us. As long as I can, I will laugh with the birds, I will sing with the flowers, and I will pray with the stars, for both of us." - Sascha Loving you with all my heart, Mommy

Yes, Moneen, I have spoken with my daughter about Sarah. We have shared some tears and smiles. Sarah will live on in many people's hearts. :)

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Mommy lit a candle.

Sweet Girl, This time of the year is sooo dreary. I need your smile, laughter, and jokes to spread some cheer. Last year my heart and soul were numb, I guess for survival sake. This year they are ragged and raw. Stage by stage. Step by step. I love you with all my heart and would give anything if I could bring you back, Sarah. Love, Mommy

I'd give anything for that too. Love you. I've been thinking about you with the move. I'm excited to visit your cottage. Love you!

If we can let go for just a moment, relax, and fall into the center of now, we can encounter directly the freedom that we've all been seeking. ~Adyashanti Such a beautiful first full moon this year. Love you girl.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Mommy lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin Pugh lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Mommy lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Brandi N. Marple lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Bradley Phillips lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Moneen C. Christovich lit a candle.

In honor of Sarah R. Christovich, Kristin pugh lit a candle.